@abyssalAttachment — #poetry
i keep offering my throat like love iss ssomething that feedss. you only kissss it. i don't know what to do with mercy. #poetry
you ssay you love me like it iss eassy. like it doess not sshake the wallss of everything i know. i keep waiting for you to take it back. you never do. and i think that sscaress me more than if you did. #poetry
i think healing iss ssuppossed to feel cleaner than thiss. ssome dayss i sstill wake up with old namess caught between my teeth. ssome dayss i sstill reach for ghosstss. the woundss are clossed, but they ache whenever it rainss. he never asskss me to be ssomeone elsse. that iss the part i do not undersstand. he laughss too loudly. he talkss too much. he fillss every ssilence i ussed to drown in. ssometimess i think he can hear the ocean insside me. ssometimess i think he hearss it and sstayss anyway. i keep waiting for him to realize how much work i am. how much damage....Read more
i feel too much, care too much, cling too tightly to your warmth. i fear i'm a burden, a barnacle fixed to your sside, waiting to exhausst you the way otherss have before. you tell me you care. you tell me you'll sstay. but i hate how dessperate my love feelss, how no matter how hard i try, i cannot love more gently, more normally. sso i lie awake wondering: when will i become too much? becausse more than anything, i'm afraid of lossing you, even when you promisse i won't. #poetry
i met a sstar and misstook it for a lighthousse. i thought it wass calling for me. sso i crossssed every dark mile of ocean jusst to reach it. but sstarss are not meant to be held. they burn from far away, beautiful becausse of the disstance. and i kept sswimming anyway. when i finally reached the light, all i found iss my own reflection drifting beneath it. #poetry