ππππ ππππππ’ πππππππ ππ:@aorticProtostar I could have saved them. I could have repaid them for all the shit I put them through. But I was just a dumb kid. I thought sending myself to an alien planet would be safer than facing what was in front of me. I ran away. Now I have the gall to act like one of them. One of the people this planet belongs to. I fetishize them. Like I have any right to. Really I think I deserve this. Never finding a home. Never keeping a job. This is my just punishment, for all my stupid crimes. I was literally 6 sweeps old. What the fuck gave me the idea that I could escape it all. That I could escape myself. Some author I turned out to be. Now I'm playing in the mud with people from a world I thought I could somehow change. The olives never should have taken me in. I just ended up taking it for granted. I don't deserve to wear this sign or boast this color. Whatever. I'll forget all these thoughts by tomorrow. Hopefully they stop coming back. Ha. If only. I feel your pain and your life I hope you can come to life with yourself. πΌπππππ’ πππ
Ok man. Whatever. You tagged me. I get it. You want me to think this is scary. It's not. Shit like this happens every week. And guess what. It goes back to the way it's always been. You're not special. So do us all a favor fuck off. And stop reading my goddamn mind.
It's not scary This is to help My only goal it to recall what you cannot
We both know that's a lie
Not quite But everyone has limits