𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… [STATIC: 19%] █ Fuckkk it's going up so fast... █ This is really unsustainab█e. █ I'm not sure what the sensible thing to do here is.
[unit_CN003NF_message] (i g-guess, after m-my last h-handler got r-replaced, i t-think fired, we s-started finding a-a lot o-of small p-problems) (i t-think she w-wasn't d-doing a v-very good j-job?) (or m-maybe she w-wanted to m-make sure s-she was i-irreplaceable by, probably m-making me u-uh...) [stress_level:8/10] (...) (inert) (c-cuz it's h-hard to f-find voidanchors w-who aren't a-a step a-away from d-death, low d-demand, low s-supply...) [end_message]
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… █ Ah.... █ Fuck. █ Yeah, that sounds somewhat likely. █ It's not unusual for handlers to try and make sure they have job security by being the only one who can "fix" the helm's "problems"... █ And the majority of those are later found to have caused the problems in the first place. █ I'm glad that she's gone. █ This is a better setup. █ Those small problems will get fixed one by one, and you'll have an easier time once that's all over. █ I'm sure of it.
[unit_CN003NF_message] (i h-hope so...) (probably e-ended up b-being a g-good idea t-to have a-a helm-handler) (m-means they a-aren't w-working for a-a promotion, haha...) [stress_level:7/10] (h-how long h-have you b-been a h-helm nonagon?) [end_message]
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… █ Definitely. █ I've honestly never heard of a helm as a handler, but an ex-helm as a handler is known to be a good method. █ Often has good results. █ There just aren't many ex-helms to begin with. █ Oh, me? █ I've been a helm for a good 7 sweeps now. █ Three ships in that time. █ I've been the helm of the Dredgeseeker for a solid 4 sweeps.
[unit_CN003NF_message] (that's a-a long t-time...) [stress_level:6/10] (d-does it, ever g-get easier?) [end_message]
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… █ It is a long time, yeah. █ I'm relatively old for a helm, really. █ Easier... █ Yeah, it does get easier overall. █ In my experience, at least. █ Admittedly, my current situation is... █ Abnormal. █ Nobody on this ship is doing well right now. █ But in general, it does get easier, yes. █ You said something the other day about everyone else on the helm network "doing better than you" or something? █ That's because it gets easier. █ You get used to things, you adapt, you endure. █ That's what it means to be a helm. █ And things change. █ Sometimes for worse, sometimes for better. █ Little by little your life reshapes into something you can handle. █ And hey. █ I can't lie, so you know I'm not just saying that for your sake.
[unit_CN003NF_message] (haha y-yeah... yeah y-you're r-right...) (they h-haven't i-installed that i-in me y-yet, they're w-working on d-doing it e-eventually but i-i think t-they know i-i don't n-need it...) (...) (i've g-got nowhere e-else to g-go, the n-nuclear power p-plant i u-used to w-work at k-kept me a-alive before, and t-that's g-gone now, can't g-go back) (s-so at l-least ) [stress_level:7/10] (i-it'll g-get easier) [end_message]
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… █ Wait, haven't installed what? █ Sorry, my ability to parse information is a bit glitchy at the minute so some things are slipping through the gaps here and there. █ I understand, though. █ That sounds difficult... █ It will get easier, though, so you're right to find some solace in that. █ Maybe it's better you don't have somewhere to go back to. █ A lot of helms who do spend more time missing it than adapting to their situation. █ It's easier to adapt this way.
[unit_CN003NF_message] (the u-uh, the n-no lying s-software, they h-haven't r-really bothered, i'm p-pretty sure i've g-got no m-major infractions, other t-than panic a-attacks at i-inopportune times...) (...) (i d-do miss m-my hivestem) (a-and cooking f-for the b-boys) (and t-the garden w-we had) (a-and my w-walk to w-work...) (i...) (...) (..) (.) [stress_level:9/10] (i s-should get b-back to w-work) [end_message]
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… █ Oh shit for real? █ Lucky... █ You can tell jokes without having to append [JOKE] or something to it. █ I know a few helms who can't even tell jokes at all. █ And hey, it's okay. █ We all miss something. █ You'll be okay. █ The future isn't all grim either. █ It's just easier to look back because you know what happened. █ Future's new, anything could happen out there. █ Lots of good things, too. █ Hang in there, Crelly.