Is there, perhaps, s9me deeply unf9rtunate and c9nsistently recurring pattern (9ne which I seem entirely incapa6le 9f either predicting in advance 9r av9iding in practice) wherein the very same individuals wh9se pers9nalities I find the m9st persistently grating, perplexing, and, if I am 6eing c9mpletely h9nest, 69rderline int9lera6le t9 endure f9r any meaningful length 9f time, als9, thr9ugh what feels like an entirely separate and frankly unc99perative set 9f circumstances, happen t9 p9ssess a level 9f 9utward physical attractiveness that is s9 dispr9p9rti9nately high that it c9mplicates, t9 a frankly unreas9na6le degree, my 9therwise straightf9rward a6ility t9 c9ntinue disliking them with9ut distracti9n?
Who's the crush. This tea is the most interesting thing of my night.
DONT ASK ME. I DONT KNOW, I JUST KNOW THAT THE MOTHERFUCKER HAS ONE.
And I was starting to think you had a pan betw33n those stupid eyes of yours.
What I mean, 9r at least what I am attempting, perhaps s9mewhat unsuccessfully, t9 c9nvey, is that there appears t9 6e this 9ng9ing and rather inc9nvenient 9verlap 6etween tw9 9therwise unrelated sets 9f qualities: 9n the 9ne hand, a c9llecti9n 9f traits, ha6its, and c9nversati9nal tendencies that I find c9nsistently irritating, difficult t9 engage with, and, 9ver time, increasingly taxing t9 t9lerate; and 9n the 9ther hand, an entirely separate, yet s9meh9w c9existing, set 9f 9utward features that, despite my 6etter judgment and repeated eff9rts t9 remain unaffected 6y them, register as markedly, and I w9uld argue dispr9p9rti9nately, appealing. And it is precisely this 9verlap, this persistent c9existence 9f what I w9uld n9rmally categ9rize as reas9ns f9r av9idance with what, under different circumstances, might 6e c9nsidered reas9ns f9r admirati9n, that creates a s9rt 9f internal c9ntradicti9n, wherein my instinct t9 distance myself is c9ntinu9usly undermined 6y an equally unhelpful awareness 9f their, f9r lack 9f a m9re c9nvenient term, visual appeal, resulting in a situati9n that is less a clear 9pini9n and m9re an 9ng9ing, mildly frustrating state 9f unres9lved evaluati9n.