had to make a low damage squeaky hammer to shoo off some of the imps that were messing with the wiring of my air conditioner. the imps are usually nice! still. bonk bonk i guess.
weak.
you're right. because i have the ability to shit i should do it everywhere and all the time. this is a good mindset. do you hear yourself?
i do, and still killing isn't a big deal you are acting like life is sacred, it is not there are infinite versions of infinite people with infinite lives i don't get why you care so much like you didn't ditch your original friends for identical copies why exactly do you care so much?
because i know what loss is like. ditch is an interesting word. so anyone who moves forwards- not even on, moves forwards at all after someone they care about dies is dithching them? i think you know that doesnt scale. i think you know that doesnt track. and i think you are desperate to make others understand your hurt. i wish i did better. i don't want anyone to feel alone. i don't care abour sacred this or that i like being nice and being nice means occasionally trying not to hurt people. it means caring. and i am not asking you to try but don't call me weak for continuing to.
you mistake living for forgetting.
argue with me you're probably right about most things but still you are weak you always have been and always will be and nothing you say or do will change that too weak to do anything right on the first try right?
maybe. i guess being weak can't be all that bad. i managed to get one of my friends out with help. and ive bumped in to others who know. i havent replaced anyone. these arent the same people. thats ok. i'll keep remembering, holding on to who i have lost. how alone they were. and then im gonna get up and make breakfast and say hello and hi and how are you because being weak doesn't mean i have to give up.
so. i hope your night is full of lovely stars.
whatever lies you need to tell yourself then i think i hate stars anyways
much the same to you, and i know that last bit certainly is a lie. you do not need to disparage something you take joy in just because someone you dislike mentions it.