#R3dgl4r3R3fl3ct1ons 1t m4y s33m 4s 1f my v3nd3tt4 4g41nst my k1ll3r 1s l34d 1nto 4 d1ff3r3nt d1r3ct1on, but 1 h4v3 v3ry much h4d m4ny, m4ny sw33ps for r3fl3ct1on, 4ng3r, d1strust, 4nd th3 f33l1ng of f41lur3. S1nc3 my r3v1v4l, th3 4ng3r h4s not s1nc3 gon3 4w4y, but 1t fu3ll3d som3th1ng w1th1n m3 3vok3d s1m1l4r pr3-d34th d3s1r3s to str1v3 to b3 4 v3ry 3xc3ll3nt 4nd c4p4bl3 L3g1sl4c3r4tor, but 1t ch4nn3ll3d 1n 4 w4y th4t m4d3 m3 w4nt to push 1nto th1s go4l h4rd3r, f4st3r. Of cours3, th3 4ng3r 1s st1ll th3r3, but 4ft3r l34rn1ng th3r3 1s m4ny 4lt3rn4t3 v3rs1ons of on3s3lf 4nd study1ng qu1ckly, 4n4lyz1ng th3 f4cts w1th r3sourc3s d1spl4y3d to m3, 4nd 1t us3d to b3 d1ff1cult to d3c1d3 wh3th3r or not 1 should f1x4t3 3fforts tow4rd 4 s1ngul4r 4lt3rn4t3 or non3 4t 4ll, 4s 1t would b3 4 w4st3 of t1m3 4nd wh4t 1'v3 work3d for would coll4ps3. Of cours3 1 st1ll d3sp1s3 h3r w1th 3v3ry 1nch of my b31ng for forc1ng m3 to 4 noos3 4g41nst my w1ll, but 1 h4v3 4lr34dy c4lcul4t3d th3 4cts of g3tt1ng r3v3ng3 4nd found 1t fru1tl3ss. 1t 1s po1ntl3ss, but 4ng3r bubbl3s st1ll 1ns1d3. 1t's pl4yful b4nt3r, p3rh4ps just 4 w1ld honkb1rd ch4s3, but th3 1ll w1ll tow4rd th1s b31ng 1 h4v3 obs3rv3d long 3nough. Or s3v3r4l b31ngs, r4th3r. N3v3r just on3. Th3r3 1s not just on3 of m3. Th1s 1s not s1mply 4n 4ct of d3t3rm1n1ng 1f 1 truly w4nt th1s troll d34d, 1 h4v3 surp4ss3d th1s f33l1ng for th3 s4k3 of my dut13s. Dut13s 1 n33d to cont1nu3 str1v1ng for 1n ord3r to m41nt41n my st4tus 1n th1s world. 1t h4s br4nch3d off, 1t 1s 4l4rm1ng 4nd 1t go3s 4g41nst wh4t 1 h4d thought for sw33ps on 3nd. Of cours3 1t d1d. Why would 1t h4v3 not? Th3 f1r3 burns 3v3n st1ll, 4nd 1 h4v3 not found 4 w4y to m41nt41n 1t th3 w4y 1 would d3s1r3. 1t's br4nch3d off, p3rh4ps on3-s1d3d, st1ll 41m1ng to cont1nu3 1n 1ts b4nt3r-h34vy fronds. 1t h3lps suppr3ss, 1t h3lps m41nt41n1ng my composur3, 1t h3lps m3 r34l1z3 th4t th3r3 1s no br1ng1ng just1c3 to 1t, 1t 1s 1mposs1bl3 now. 1t h3lps m3 b3com3 b3tt3r, 3v3n 1f th1s 1s such 4 vuln3r4bl3 st4t3 for m3, th1s 1s s1mply to drop down 4nd spr34d 1t out, 3sp3c14lly w1th 4n 4lt3rn4t3 w1th v3ry just1f13d h4t3. 1 f3lt th3 s4m3. Now, 1t 1s t1m3 to us3 th4t to bu1ld up. Work my w4y h1gh3r.