@grimCue — #bodyhorror
i put in so much work to get my ideal body, honing it like steel against an iron shaping it from the brick i was originally stuck with until i finally had it how i wanted it. and then it shattered and i was thrust upon a new piece of metal, one that doesn't shape near as easily one that is stubborn, rough, always fighting against the change. i don't feel at home in my own skin let me rot #bodyhorror #cw-bodydysphoria
i am alive my heart still beats in my chest, the hole through my torso still drips my flowing blood. it's color lacks a signifier. but it is mine, and i can tell that. my skin feels the space around me the breaths i take are perfectly and utterly mine. i am a living breathing creature the influence within my body grows, the growing tendrils stifen my eyes fill with the black substance. no longer what i used to be my body's not my own, until i put it in its place. now i'm alone. i am me. #gore #bodyhorror