Genderr's fuckin' weirrd. Which I know ain't a new idea but... Th' howlbeasts I grrew up with didn't rreally have th' same sorrta worrds ferr it that trrolls have. It wasn't rreally a thin'? Ya werre just yerrself, we called each otherr by name orr rrole. "Get Lunarrl. Get th' gatherrerr, th' lead hunterr." Shit like that. Therre was awarreness of sex n all that, but that was differrent. Didn't rreally tie to yerr rrole. Talkin' to otherr trrolls prroperrly was rreal weirrd, cos they had a bunch of ways t' rreferr t' each otherr, and therre's like... Expectations with yerr prronouns, about what yerr body's like. And I don't think I match those? Which I think makes me trrans? But it's not like I have th' same experriences therre, cuz I was just me. Wasn't rreally a boy orr a girrl orr anythin'. Still doesn't feel like anythin' fits. How th' hell do ya manage that?
It can be a rough journey of discovery, however, what truly matters at the end of the day is your own self-determination of identity. You may choose to take whatever labels you see fit, whether you decide you fall under the trans umbrella or not is entirely up to you. You certainly seem to have a unique upbringing where it did not hold sway over your life choices, so by all means, your path to forge.
I see. Thank ya kindly ferr yerr explanation. Helps a bit.