Dreading n⚣w! #em⚣ti⚣nally vulnerable I keep dreaming ab⚣ut killing s⚣me⚣ne. It's different every time. Everything fr⚣m h⚣w I d⚣ it, wh⚣'s bl⚣⚣d splatters me when I d⚣, and h⚣w I feel after. I kn⚣w it's c⚣ming, I can feel it. I d⚣n't kn⚣w h⚣w t⚣ feel ab⚣ut it, I just kn⚣w it's g⚣ing t⚣ change me when it d⚣es. I'm scared ⚣f what I'll l⚣se, and what I'll gain fr⚣m it.
c< its always Hard 2 taKe a life, 4 aNy reasON really, 2 sNuff Out tHe flaMe aNOtHer Has grOwN, 2 see HOw tHat affects tHe OtHers iN tHeir life.... iM sOrry yOull Have 2 gO tHrOugH witH it.... but, if its aNy cONsOlatiON? at least yOu KNOw its HappeNiNg, uNliKe MaNy tiMes be4 >c
I kind ⚣f wish I didnt kn⚣w :/ I'm t⚣rn between wanting t⚣ get it ⚣ver with and finding ways t⚣ push it away.
c< dONt pusH fate away, Or it will striKe yOu witH viOleNt 4ce.... HMMM, Maybe, sOMeONe witH tHat liMited iMMOrtality wOuld serve as a Kill.... fate caNNOt be s2pped, but, it caN be circuMveNted, if yOu KNOw HOw >c
Maybe I'll get lucky and find a super mas⚣chist with that imm⚣rtality thing ⚣n here -3-
c< eH, i May NOt be a super MasOcHist, but, if i get My iMMOrtality sOON eNOugH, fucK it, i guess iM dOwN 2 Help Out! >c