...my dreams...do not wish...to be followed...(.ᐟ)
...no...they went...on permanent leave...and i am contractually obligated...to continue paying them...in spite of their absence...(.ᐟ)
Sounds like you need to chase them up, then. Nothing is stopping you but inconvenience. Or perhaps this is a good time to seek new dreams.
...i am bound...to this one dream...that continues to barkbeast...my heels... ...i will never...truly discard...of my pencil...even if...it brings me...endless frustration... ...so i guess now...is a good as time as any...or at the very least...better than tomorrow...to try again...(.ᐟ)
I am certain you can find it again. I have found that sometimes taking a break or seeking external inspiration helps. I don't know if that's the case for you. Good luck.
...i will try... ...i will try...everything i can...until i find what works...one of these days... ...thank you...for your words...(.ᐟ)