@ i suppose it has been long enough that i can disclose what had happened. the emotional wounds, as well as the physical, have scarred over by now. fresh enough to sting, but old enough to not render the self speechless. @ @ i tried to kill my lusus. i, clearly, was woefully unprepared for the task. despite my towering stature and what i had assumed to be proficiency with my weapon... it was simply not enough. being locked up for so long, with no threats in sight nor reason to brandish my steel for any reason other than idle boredom or "practice"... she overpowered me, gnashed her teeth and swiped her claws, and yet, i find myself having persisted. @ @ perhaps her twisted affections have shown by means of staying the act of sending me to my inevitable fate. perhaps she simply considers me an object to be hoarded. whatever the case... @ @ i am still here. @
