@nightterrorPsychologist — #substance
I should probably go to bed but I have to wait until I stop smelling of smoke, while I actually am very good at monitoring how often I'll smoke a cigarette, Jade and Kanaya still don't exactly like me smoking, and Jade can always smell it on me for at least ten minutes afterwards.
Oh...Oh it very much kicked in, I feel as thought I am floating.
This edible ain't shit.
I know I just said being high can make me more anxious but I would be lying if I were to deny how much I want to watch Possibly in Michigan right now.
Admittedly I should probably have someone to watch over me during this, I can be a bit anxious while high.
It took me far longer to acquire weed than I thought it would.
I'm going to get cannabis, between the stress and pain throughout my body I'm out of ideas.
I completely skipped over the alcohol addiction in my teens thanks to my friends. Although I gained a caffeine addiction by the age of 10.
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Zemich asked: https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/72f33cbb13a3.png It kind of feels...I guess floaty? your head is in the clouds, you care less, but yor emontins rin high so you're einthr relly happy or crying... https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/72f33cbb13a3.png
"You know who this is" yes I do, hello @grimCue https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/4a8df2a24930.png . God forbid I drink once to prove a point to myself, I get it every Rose is the devil, moving on. This was a one time thing, odds are low that I will even dare to touch alcohol again for another year or two.
I just drank for the first time in years, ask me anything: https://forms.gle/m3tHBSi9pKscMyuBA
Can we jsut not trust anytinhg I say for the rest of the ngiht because I don't trist my drunk words...
That was defintly over two drinks.
In around 4 hours ill be attempting to drink for the first time in a few years...I am unsure how I feel about this but I don't want to back out now.
Logically I know I shouldn't drink, when compared to most people I know I have a higher chance of developing alcoholism...and yet here I am making plans to feed some desire that laid dormant for some time yet is now screaming at me to acknowledge it and feed into it, even once.
I'll ask one final time before bed as I'm making a list. I'm attempting to drink again for the first time in years tomorrow, what would people recommend?
Out of pure curiosity, were I to have any desire to drink, what drinks or drink mixes would people recommend?
I̵ ̵w̵i̸s̵h̷ ̴I̵ ̷w̶a̶s̶n̷'̶t̸ ̶s̷o̷b̸e̸r̵.̸.̵.̶
I should get high more than twice a year, perhaps once a month or every other month. It can be nice when I'm not experiencing an anxiety spike and I know I could stick to having a healthy relationship with cannabis unlike that other common #substance .
I may attempt drinking in a safe controlled environment on July 1st just to prove a point to myself.
I can't deny I do occasionally think about having one or two drinks, a little something to prove to myself I can do it and it won't effect me in the long term. I know it will, but I can pretend like it wouldn't for a minute. #substance
I feel like there's something strange about me for being a Rose that's only gotten drunk a small handful of times, as in I could count the amount on both my hands and have fingers to spare. #substance
I'm becoming a tad worried at the fact stoner Kanayas are apparently an entire thing. #substance
Why the fuck does this Chuck-E-Cheese sell alcohol? #substance
I'm fairly certain I've been high due to fucking up my medicine dosages more time than I've actually been drunk. On one occasion I remember dancing with the Hatman to Limp Bizkit. #substance