she spoke to me. when i was sitting alone. she noticed i was really upset and combatitive. i didnt know what to tell her; how do you talk to someone who you know you upset really badly but cant even recall, with it being something so bad that you dont even trust yourself in knowing? and, instead, i spoke to her about the anxieties i was experiencing about everything. and she reassured me, that same reassurance that comes naturally of anyone who cares deeply about me. but she doesnt know. she doesnt know what i know; that im trapped in this loop and something fatally wrong has occurred. i thanked her and gave her my best smile. but she saw through me; yet, she felt enough that she should leave it well alone. i shouldve never been a time player.
=oXO oh timi''' you can,t help that''' i don,t know how the game works but i,m pretty sure you don,t choose, and if you don,t choose, then it,s not your fault if it takes a long time to learn or if something goes wrong' you,re doing the best with what you have and i,m so sorry that it,s become so horribly stressful for you''' when you,re out of the loop you and your friends can talk it out properly¡ i know you,ll be able to¡¡ until then just hold on okay¿ you can do this timi =oXO
yeah... yeah, youre right omicri. thank you.
=oXO i,m here for you anytime timi¡¡ it must be very scary but think about how relieved you,ll be once you,ve figured it all out¡ =oXO
im really holding onto that thought...
=oXO that,s good¡¡ keep holding okay¿ grip it tight and hold it close and you can,t lose¡ =oXO