♦ pitied by @trickyTransmission
Me, I don’t mind primarily being convenient or useful. Considering my full self is overwhelming, it’s a good thing to be. But I am a willing machine. Bad idea to treat a natural person that way.
:> Don’t mist^ke wh^t I s^y for self-deprec^tion, either. I do not feel h^ving low rom^ntic ^ppe^l is ^n inherently b^d thing. I would r^ther be joyously myself, I initi^lly ^ssumed I would ^lw^ys need to refr^in from expressing such feelings for politeness’ s^ke. And I ^ccepted th^t. Such is who ^nd wh^t I ^m. <:
Not for long. Or rather, I won't be for long. But I was purple. ...That's probably confusing. Check my pinned chit. I can answer more questions if you have them. Anyway. Thank you.
Idk, idk, maybe I should just sleep. Leilei’s been delivered to Quilis. Nothing else to do for the moment. Aside from everything. But I’d rather be nothing right now.
Nah she's gonna be uh. Reconstituting. Somewhat literally. But then she'll be hivebound for a bit resting up, so I'm sure she'd appreciate visitors. I'll let you know.
Whoops. Well, Leilei's gonna be out of commission for a few nights.
:> Truly is something being someone who loves port design but h^tes helm cruelty. I love ports! They h^ve so m^ny person^l ^nd profession^l uses! I h^te how uns^fe ^nd under-regul^ted the industry is. You know it’s b^d when the first time P^sc^l ^nd I met in person, I w^s cle^ning their ports. And I enjoyed doing it, but still - helms should be given the tools to do it themselves ^s ^ m^tter of st^nd^rd procedure. <:
RELATION: POBICO ONLY SṴSPECT IT RIGHT NOW NO CONFIRMATION CONCERN: REMAIN IN HIM THOṴGH X( HOPING FOR CHITTIZENS SAFETY
hive hunting venturess continue. there'ss. a *decent* one in atecasstar, within reassonable disstance of work. it'ss lessss expenssive than what i've sseen but... it'ss. sstill out of my piddly little price range. ugh.
⦓ Yes... It can be a source of pusherbreak, for sure. I'm not really sure why I'm not more sad about the loss of mine, but given my circumstances I imagine I will just end up mourning properly at a later date! ⦔
Hope and Doom are the most dangerous pair, in my opinion. I wish the game didn’t have them as aspects. You can reshape reality. You can mend the air and fortune and purify blood. But to convince someone they are doomed so heavily that it destroys them? To make them hope for something that cannot be and mislead them? Those are what kill universes.
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They sure wouldn’t.
Yeah you and me too. Just because they’ll probs get recovered doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck.
:> -- unforeseenFr^gment is: CURRENTLY UNAVAILABLE -- [Hello. This is ^ pre-written mess^ge to signify th^t I will be ^w^y for ^n uncert^in period of time due to foreseen c^uses. Ple^se do not worry ^bout me; I will be fine. Arty c^n confirm th^t this is entirely due to my own pl^ns ^nd security needs requiring me to be offline for two weeks or so. I hope you will ^ll be well in my ^bsence. - Eileit] <:
water iss a good friend of mine but it iss not doing much for me on an empty acid tract...
Sometimes someone tells you they are fine when they clearly aren't and your only options are to either go "alright" and respect their wishes but risk being unable to assist, or to ignore their wishes and help anyway, even if it upsets them. This is a choice that is known as an "impossible choice" because there is no correct answer. That being said, there is often a wrong one, or at least, one that is more wrong than the other. Figuring out which one is the wrong one is the hardest part.
:> Arty. <:
:> I’m h^rdly doing wonderfully, but I’m not going to go on ^ r^mp^ge like I did l^st time. I’m currently ^t Li^lyi ^nd P^sc^l’s borrowed hive, getting it re^dy for when they get b^ck. So ^t le^st th^t’s something to do. <:
:> Th^t s^id I’m obviously livid ^bout wh^t h^ppened, but time to not be ^ hypocrite ^nd m^ke things worse. Agonizing ^s it is, I know I need to w^it right now. <:
:> Shout out to my mood regul^tion drugs for helping me not lose my shit ^g^in. I love you mood regul^tion drugs. <:
I have managed to get them to let me into the room. I will be away to look after them.
Fuck. They saw. Okay.
¶ NOT SO! H3 JUST INSISTS I HAV3 A "H3ALTHY" AND "VARI3D" DI3T. BUT DO3SN'T UND3RSTAND THAT I HAV3 TO LIT3RALLY CHOK3 DOWN HALF OF WHAT I'M GIV3N, 3V3N IF I KNOW 3XACTLY WH3R3 IT CAM3 FROM. §1 L3T'S JUST SAY 3ATING IS ON3 OF TH3 F3W THINGS THAT AR3 NOT MY FORT3.
Ormici has regained enough consciousness to speak. I was not expecting to be asked if I knew how to tie a tie, but thankfully I do. It worries me that that was their first priority, but... They're still somewhat shaken. They likely just wanted to make sure nobody could take it from them. I still do not know why they have her tie. I assume she gave it to them. I hope she gave it to them.
I am glad that Ormici is coming to somewhat more this evening but I hope they do not decide to go on chittr until tomorrow at the earliest. I'm not sure that the #moirailmonday hashtag would be particularly good for them in this present moment. They are recovering very well, though.
:> Four times. And for those of you re^ding, every time I think this j^ck^ss h^s stopped THEY DO IT AGAIN. <:
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Don’t go blub blub, Leilei will be sad from her weaselless existence.
... Everything is fine. Thankfully. So very thankfully. I need to sleep, this has been exhausting... I am not sure I trust Iksham not to attempt to harm me, however, so I shall retreat to the anthill for tonight. She will protect her, and that, I can trust.
As do I...
... Today is not my day.
I do wonder sometimes if I am truly doing enough. But if I do any more I will self-destruct, which helps nobody. Some things need patience.
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Well. Eileit just woke up. She’s doing bad, though. Probably not gonna be coherent for a while. @trickyTransmission Since you asked. But don’t expect to hear from it for a bit.
Hm. [Arty is looking up, its sharp camera eyes showing the sky above the crater where it rests. A few clouds have gathered. On a planet being overcome by desertification. They darken. Thunder rumbles, but there is no lightning. It begins to rain. A gentle patter turning the sand darker below. Arty looks down to behold Eileit, still unconscious on the sand, limbs sprawled in its sleep. It shakes a bit. It sheds many red tears. Still it does not wake. Still the rain falls.]
Honestly? No. And she’s gonna be worse when she wakes up. It won’t be angry anymore, but..well, it’s gonna feel like shit, considering the circumstances.
Boy I sure was in stasis for a bit. Just as well, my repairs made a decent amount of progress. …Eileit’s still unconscious, though.
Ehhhhhhh. Safe is a strong word. But I put a cork on Leilei’s epic crashout before she got within five kilometers of Moongorger, so I’m calling it a win.
Man I hate it here already, these storms suck ass. Sand in my everything. In related news I may have made a small crater from impact. My b. Silver lining: I also knocked Eileit out. Lead lining: I have to repair myself too. Don’t mind meeee, I’m just chilliiiiin’.
[ACTIVE OBSERVATION AUDIO LINK - REAL TIME] [A quiet, wet noise of something dragging along sand.] “Kkkkkch. Chkkkt. Ttkkkkrrr.” [Eileit’s voice. Somewhat warped. Clicking and chittering in irritation.] “SCREEEEEEE!” [The sound of something being torn apart. Mulched. The dragging sound continues. Louder and more wet.] “Doing a number on the carnivorous horse population…” [Arty’s voice; a dry mutter. It cuts out.] [END LINK]
Why don’t they sell slutty maid dresses in size not spindly? Are they afraid to love?
:> Sometimes I wish the horrific things ^bout me weren’t so horrific so I could sh^re ^nd t^lk ^bout them. But other times I do like ^ bit of shock v^lue. It’s fun to surprise people. Most import^ntly, though, I w^nt to keep my ^ccount ^t le^st semi-ple^s^nt for the s^ke of my friends. <:
They have updated me on their status, but I can't help but still be concerned. I know they're fine, and this is where they need to be, but it'd be nice to have a location... Oh well. I'm not one to speak on secrecy. They're safe and much happier.
The haters do not appreciate my spray paint murals about cat no like banana and getting stickbugged.
:> So I h^ven’t been l^id on. I ^m, however, now wr^pped up in y^rn ^nd ^ bow h^s been tied in my h^ir. Arty thinks this is humorous. I for one h^ve decided to not give ^ shit ^nd inste^d look ^t crow memes on my phone. I suppose I could use the bre^k ^nyw^y. <:
:> I forgive you, I s^y, prep^ring for my f^te. <:
:> I feel like Arty’s lump of ^ self pressed me even fl^tter th^n I ^lre^dy ^m, R^esul, which is ^n ^ccomplishment. Anyw^y yes I’m feeling better. <:
:> Ahhhhh. Fuck. Th^t’ssss ^ fucking. Problem. And it’s so. Obvious. Of course the ^ir displ^cement will be. A problem. When the oxygen is ^lre^dy limited on bo^rd. I’ll h^ve to m^ke the difference up. Myself. Port^ls. <:
:> I’m betting on the w^ll. But your optimism is kind, even if I don’t sh^re it. <:
:> I h^ve f^ith in myself on v^rious fronts but it comes to ^ h^rd stop right before it comes to qu^dr^nts. Bonk, right into ^ w^ll. <:
:> Im^gine m^king ^ confession. I just keep ^ny untow^rd feelings deep down inside me, ^nd then one night I’ll die. (●＾◇＾●) <:
Im pretty sure something bad happened to me once. ▲nd maybe to someone I cared about. But I dont remember them. I only have this blue squirrel necklace. ▲nd I dont want to let it go but I dont want to know more. I dont even know how Id find out. Like I wonder sometimes but I cant live my life trying to be some guy I used to be. I dont even know if I could.
:> Hrrrgh. The things I do to st^y (somewh^t) polite ^nd not post ^nything too g^uche or disturbing. I keep reminding myself it’s ^ll worth it. Bec^use it is. <:
:> The price one p^ys for A Single T^sty Drink With Some Rum is high. B^ck to mech^nic^l-themed poetry se^rching between ex^mining the roof. Nothing better be infesting it. #subst^nce <:
oh nooooo I'm dying gurgleeeee I am deaaaaad. bleh
Sigh!!!!! My head! Is so full of thoughts!!!! ❣︎
Some of you are! A little bit scary on here!! ❣︎
Negative ten outta ten experrience
:> People ^ppreci^te Arty’s ^dvice? It re^lly is dire on here. Even Arty ^grees th^t’s ^ b^d sign ^nd s^ys it’s going to bury its he^d in the s^nd until people ^re funnier to bother ^g^in ^nd don’t just “roll over ^nd st^re like shelter dogs.” <:
:> Lovely thought, but you see, I w^s “being ^ gross mut^nt” so I h^ve to go to forever j^il ^nd ^m not welcome b^ck. (Author’s note: one of those things is true. The other is ^dmittedly ^ smidge of hyperbole.) <:
I am. Still on the cliff though. ❣︎