#eldritchhorror
i see myself, i hear myself, and i see myself. there is dreamless sleep where i am and yet where i am i am nOt within that dreamless sleep. i truly wOnder hOw i feel. i am myself i shOuld knOw hOw i feel. but they are sO very different tO me yet they are the exact same. i wOnder why i did what i did there. its technically nOt me. but i suppOse it makes sense Only i wOuld chOse what i did. if nOt tO save what i thOught i wOuld have saved but tO quell the pain. i was very keen On viOlence against Others. i suppOse i never said anything abOut Other me’s. i need time tO think. i can’t think. it’s all sO l...Read more
being sOmething sO much mOre than i is cOnfusing. the feeling Of sOmething gnawing On my flesh and bOnes prevails but it is nOt i whO is being devOured by maggOts and ticks. in a way it is sOmewhat calming that i knOw that whatever agOny i may feel will be felt elsewhere but the agOny is still agOny nOnetheless. i hear cries Of pain i did nOt experience and sObs and mOurns Of funerals i had nOt attended. its deafening. i feel my flesh decaying when i myself am fOr the mOst part Okay because anOther me is feeling it in real time. i cannOt stand it. i cannOt stand feeling nOthing. it is nOt real here bu...Read more