#ponderingpixie
3833 < I'm having to ride out these feelings until they pass, and that's ok. > 3833 < Equius isn't the only one that struggles with seeing me past my parts. Eridan sees me as a manifestation of her guilt. Of what he almost did or the damage he could have caused. > 3833 < I'm not Fefeta to them, not really. I'm a reminder to be good, be better, be more—But, why can't I just exist as someone outside of your shame? > 3833 < I don't talk to her. > #ponderingpixie
3833 < Something that I wonder about often is what I am to my peers. > 3833 < I know a lot of people like me! I do my best to try and be reliable to as many people as possible—It's what I'm coded to do, you know? But, I am made of Heart and Life in equal parts. > 3833 < And the Heart notices things. > 3833 < I notice that he won't look at me. His Moirail is alive and well, but I'm a memory of something he never experienced. Something he never experienced, but he thinks about it a lot. He's afraid of it. Afraid of failing her. > 3833 < I can't tell him that the girl he mourns was not his, because the...Read more
3833 < While I am grateful that the ghoul issue is being sorted by something of a professional, it leaves a girl to ponder until it's safe to go outside... > 3833 < Tag #ponderingpixie to avoid these ramblings, if you like. >