I must admit some curiosity as to what prevents you from seeing them. Given your status on the timeline as an amphibious sprite that hasn't yet been confined to my morally dubious yet also beautifully elegant and indigo b100ded chassis. Unless you are still alive you should be able to 100k for them in the dream bubbles.
i think it's n0rmal t0 miss y0ur friends regardless if y0u can see them 0r n0t. at least i w0uld like t0 think s0. i supp0se i haven't th0ught ab0ut actively seeking them 0ut th0ugh. because i feel resp0nsible f0r a l0t 0f things that happened and will happen.
I see. I took your statement too literally in that case. In either case I would not worry about any emotions or bad b100d between you. Leaving aside the bad b100d you would be carrying in your spectral body by virtue of your caste, almost everyone I have met finds no fault in your actions Megido, especially at your specific point in the timeline. If you were a Serket or an Ampora or a Makara I would understand and even encourage hesitancy but you were always, in a certain sense, stuck in the whirlp001 which is Parado% Space and so no true fault could be allocated to your actions.
hm. ribbit. the c0mment 0n my bl00d aside, i was n0t.. expecting y0u t0 say s0mething like that. ab0ut the fault n0t being mine. after spending a l0t 0f time 0bserving dream bubbles as a gh0st bef0re bec0ming a sprite, i became very apathetic t0 a l0t 0f things. until that changed suddenly and with0ut warning. ribbit. f0r reas0ns i'm still n0t sure 0f. ribbit. s0 it 0nly made sense that i blame myself i supp0se. i have changed s0 much it has bec0me exhausting. i d0 n0t wish t0 change again. and that wish is unfair t0 every0ne else because it's supp0sed t0 happen.
Ignore that like reaction it was a complete accident. It is true that if you do not change you would render your timeline a doomed offshot and by e%tension mark all your friends for death and I cannot say why you are not eager to transform once more considering the beauty that your ne%t form acquires although I am biased considering I design every inch of that form's perfect shape. However there is no need to rush in your decision. And while your understanding of time does mean you are aware of the negative consequences of your actions in a way most of us were not, there is only ever going to be one version of yourself that isn't doomed which means that if you decide to avoid your change into an indigo b100ded e%ceptionally well-built goddess for whatever reason you would be in the majority. Our "alpha' selves are the outliers if anything.
i understand. i w0n't lie. i d0n't really see the need t0 lie anym0re, t0 pretend f0r the sake 0f 0thers. ribbit. 0r s0mething like that. i kn0w that i will n0t like it. i d0n't think any versi0n 0f me liked it, 0r ever will. i hated it. ribbit. i guess i can appreciate y0u building a b0dy f0r me, even th0ugh i never asked f0r it. the pr0blem is that i d0 n0t want t0 be s0me0ne every0ne else wants me t0 be. i wanted t0 be aradia. n0t aradiasprite. n0t aradiab0t. just aradia. i'm s0rry. ribbit. that was a l0t. a l0t m0re than i intended t0 say. it's a little embarrassing h0nestly. it's disheartening t0 kn0w that my acti0ns will cause us t0 be d00med. ribbit. but y0u are right ab0ut that. my timeline w0uld be 0ne 0f many that gets destr0yed. s0 it d0esn't really matter what i d0. it never did. and i guess i kind 0f hate that t00.
I know that. I have yet to find an Aradia who enjoyed her stage in e%istence as an Aradiabot though I have yet to find any whose bodies were not built with that cursed switch. In hindsight even though it would doom my timeline if I was somehow pushed back to the stage of designing it I would remove it, even though it would likely mean you would never acknowledge me e%cept as a creepy if well-muscled highb100d. There is nothing to apologize for. I am in my quote unquote redemption arc as Nepeta would say. And while I cannot say definitively if anything any of us ever did mattered in the abstract sense I can say our decisions were still our own even if only in the sense that they rendered us doomed. Besides, now that we are irrelevant to "canon" we can do whatever we want without worrying about our destinies as they aren't ours to realize.
i think i w0uld have liked t0 be friends. at s0me p0int. i d0n't think i disliked y0u when i was alive. ribbit. but i w0n't deny that i never n0ticed y0u in the way y0u wanted me t0. whatever way that might've been. i w0n't get int0 that f0r sake 0f this being a public space. i have been t0ld a few times t0day that i if i want s0mething i sh0uld just reach 0ut and take it. which i think aligns with what y0u're saying very well. i want t0 d0 things differently. i'm happier kn0wing that my ch0ices are f0r myself. i w0uld n0t mind being friends with y0u n0w. ribbit. if that's s0mething y0u are 0kay with.
I would be very okay with us being friends. Even if you are not my Aradia.