its late aint no ones gonna see this. no one sees my posts anyvway. just talking about stupid mental health shit. rambling thoughts, exhaustion about it. been diagnosed recently by a psychologist. post-partum depression, regular ass depression, C-PTSD, some other shit. a lot of other shit... i dont get half of this shit. most of these terms vwerent evwen on beforus. got vworried they vwere gonna toss me in a loony bin vwhen my moirail recommended going to a human therapist. apparently, i made one too many jokes about killing myself. dunno vwhy this all makes me feel anxious. i dunno, vweird feeling and shit on my chest. heavwy as hell. apparently, being tired all the time is not normal. a lot of other stuff. blegh this is a stupid post.
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i did post it on a public forum, people usually just ignore vwhat i say so i figured itd be the same case here, so no harm, no foul. and yeah, if you can, it doesnt hurt vwhen you get in a better place to do it, I had to get pushed to do it cause I aint... the vwisest about these sorta things? took a lot of convwincing to get me to go. better for it evwentually. and humans knowv more about mental health than trolls do, and alternian docterrors can kill you or hurt you. on beforus you can get coddled/culled (interchangeable on beforus), and I am a seadvweller, so its more rare but not unheard of. Humans are less extreme about it.
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VWords on a screen can only offer so much reassurance, but Im in no immediate danger. Im just on some sorta emotional rollercoaster. Its not a fun ride. 8eing vwulnerable isnt really my thing... so probably a vweird post from me in general, 8UT I am okay. Youre fine, its a convwersation. 8ut, yeah, they are. They care a lot about mental health and the vwell-being of those around them. And only take action in extreme cases. And, that could be it, but from my understanding, its just the large urge to understand themselvwes and to prevwent they consider tragedy. Any loss of life to humans is tragic. On Alternia, its another day; on 8eforus, its sad but also another day. They havwe a great capacity for Empathy, I think, evwen if they vwere strong, theyd be like that. Its getting better; I havwe a support system. Im struggling, but its not stuff I share often. Im figuring it out, ya knowv?
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Sorry fell asleep. Doesnt hurt, find it a bit of a relief to knowv vwhats vwrong and vwhats not. Kinda a "Im not crazy" moment. I mean... probably a lil crazy but dunno, relief is the vword for nowv. fair enough, and thank you. I appreciate that kind vwords. humility isnt a thing for me to experience, so maybe thats vwhy I feel this vway about it. but thank ya.