#aspe(ttalk 1/12 - rage 7eah, bet 7ou didn’t think i’d be (oming ba(k to these again, huh. neither did i. but i’m not approa(hing this from an outsider, this time. now i’m a rage pla7er, whi(h means i’ve got insights i didn’t before. rage is a real thumbta(k in m7 shoe of an aspe(t, i swear. it feels like it’s dragging me down ever7 time i think. what (ould be? what should be? what might be? no, idiot. here and now. stop thinking about bullshit. like a slap in the fa(e. but i’ve been (onsidering it, too. and 7ou know what else isn’t part of the here and now? 7ou know what else is a fantas7 without a basis in realit7? despair. surrender. an invin(ible foe, an ines(apable fate. the truth is that there’s a wa7. there’s a path forward. 7ou don’t get to give up and lie down and just take what’s (oming. i don’t get to. this whole thing, i need to suffer and struggle and work for it be(ause the truth is that it’s not impossible. there’s a path here that doesn’t involve me d7ing. …there was alwa7s a path there, even ba(k then. i just didn’t look for it, and just rolled over and a((epted m7 death. rrgh. slap in the fa(e again. i (an’t think about the past. there’s work to be done.