One would expect being tossed into asinine situations that shouldn't even be possible would mean I'd fuck this up pretty damn easy but no. I'm locked in. I don't think this is something I could get used to, even now without pain I can feel the strain on me. Still. I persevere because a) I wanna prove I can do it, b) I don't want my actual death to be "fried brain piloting alien space craft with her head"
Having a decent understanding of alternian through personal study and cross-referencing information provided with knowledge of being hooked to my own machine means that I've been able to go at this with a steady rhythm. Unfortunately suspicions are starting to be correct. I/they are pulling power from nothing. In particular, whatever connection I have to the absence. Which means on some level the void ties are either universal or I'm the unlucky winner needing to figure shit out sooner or later because by all means that shouldn't be possible.