confession says somethin about howw i am a seadwweller makes me wwant to scrub and scratch until theres nothiny left i havve attempted to cut off my fins before... i havvent as im just a cowward and i dont knoww if anyone wwould lovve me if i left evvidence about howw i cant stand howw i look and howw my body wworks i dont knoww wwhat is wwrong wwith me i shpuldnr feel this wway i feel such an vvitriol discomfort and discomfort wwhen i should be normal abd feel fine about it and i dont knoww if its related to howw my stomach turns at howw i look or its because it feels like i should feel immediate guilt ovver evverythin about myself and showwin any side of myself that isnt attempted to be scrubbed and seen as an example of good either your trans caste or wwhatevver the fuck it is or youre hemoist wwith a lot a fuckin self hatin guilt theres no inbetwween wwhats that other one dysmorphia or somethin that too youvve been judged confession twwo says i am so full a wwant i feel it wwill swwalloww me wwhole it wwouldnt be so bad i think if it had a source but it doesnt it just IS and i dont knoww howw to cut it out if theres anythin i knoww about wwantin is that it comes from fuckin somewwhere youre neglectin some part a yourself and this desire a wwant thats so strong is tryin to get it back feed yourself youvve been judged