ᛝ Two people is not enough to truly understand, but... ᛝ ᛝ It seems that a name is a gift. ᛝ ᛝ Is it also a choice? ᛝ ᛝ It wonders this. ᛝ
ᛝ It sees. ᛝ ᛝ But you did not keep it. ᛝ ᛝ Are names transient, or had you simply not found the one? ᛝ

i became a different person, and didnt wish to... taint the memory of that name with awful things i had done. and so i left it.
ᛝ Interesting. ᛝ ᛝ A name is also a privilege, then. ᛝ ᛝ One that can be revoked or shed. ᛝ

perhaps. if you seek a new name, maybe you could choose something meaningful to your life, or symbolic of your new freedom? a reminder of sorts.
ᛝ It was not designed to make decisions. ᛝ ᛝ ... ᛝ ᛝ But it supposes that it is something it must learn. ᛝ ᛝ It does not know. ᛝ ᛝ It has one now. ᛝ ᛝ But it is not sure it wants everyone to call it that. ᛝ ᛝ Because the thing it likes most about that name is the one who uses it. ᛝ

i wish you good luck in finding a name you like for yourself rather than because of another.
It is perfectly fine to hold a name close…I think it’s nice that you have someone you prefer to use it.
