#traumatuesday #cw-suicide #gore #possiblesa? i was dating terezi, who was unexplainably aggressive to karkat (sephora incident included elsewhere). terezi tried overdosing back in march, thankfully he survived. two-ish weeks later, he said i wasn't as good as troll pailing and karkat "tasted better" while we were both drunk texting on pesterchum,.we didn't talk for a while until the start of march, when i ended up with the red/green juju lollipop, which is where he breaks up with me. few days go by, and he hits me up saying "H333YYY / ON3 L4ST T1M3 WONT HURT >;]" i feel awful amd guilty for him, so i allow him to come over and pail. next day, he's freaking out and nearly crying when he comes back to my house begging me to not tell karkat or dave about it. sadly, i had no choice on that matter, and they both found out after moving my turtleneck to the side on our date. dave leave karkat and i at the apartment, as she goes to my house and nearly kills terezi (broke his horn off, multiple stab wounds, stomping his head in until he was nearly unresponsive). terezi stayed with another troll for a while, and ended up brutally killing himself by hanging and whatever else he did to mutilate his body. i really fucking hate him, but i really miss him. i'm stuck with these stupid scars he gave me from that day, i've refused to look in mirrors since that day. i don't even feel happy with myself.
