((i'm sorry for posting like that the other night. this is a bit personal, but i've been unable to get access to my medication for my mental illnesses recently (they cancelled my medicaid out of the blue and i didn't realize for months) and while i did have extras leftover that i've been able to take for these last few months, as of like the start of this week i've been 100% unmedicated for OCD, depression, anxiety, and bipolar. my compulsions, intrusive thoughts, and especially my mood swings were/are in full effect and it isn't pretty. i have not had full control over my mind and actions and i hate it, so much. i'm sorry for letting that show here, and especially in front of people i really care about. i applied for medicaid again last month but they are absolutely waiting the full 30 day limit before they review my application so i'm just sort of left out to dry in the meantime. i will probably take a break from chittr for the sake of my mental health until i can get fully medicated again. if you want to get in contact with me for any reason you can reach me on discord at lunaalex.