you dont answer to anustrom btw dw abt it if this one gets all fussy ill bust out the spray bottle
... you werent always like this
and how was i always like exactly
i remember you could be annoying and rude but you were never cruel you never just shoved peoples trauma in their fucking face for no reason so what changed?
i dont think there has to be a grandiose change in someones life for them to be i dont even know what you would call it irreverent? dickish? dismissive? insufferable even? the only interactions ive ever had with you you were tryna preach and start some shit while being kind of just wrong on all fronts you enable people to never work on their personal shit and bury yours in the back yard like a sack of dog treats with the puppy equivalent of a dollar sign on it except maybe its bones idk how puppy folks do it and also youre eternally a blank between the eyes lapdog for someone else partially cause youre a dorky ass puppybrained doofus like i can practically see the dog collar outlines on your neck without even having to look at you but also because like to be quite honest with you it was a real pain in the ass to deal with every backsassing mouthy motherfucking grimbark i ever did meet self righteous stubborn sure of yourself even when theres nothing to be sure of hell even over the course of this conversation youre twiddling your thumbs hovering juuuust over the block button with the court of pubic opinion on speed dial i meant to say public but pubes is way funnier anyway point is youre a grown ass adult puppy or not
oh, and bitching at people is a good way to get them to work on themselves is it?? how has that worked out for you huh??? every time youve accused me of that i was either trying to guide someone towards the right answer GENTLY without making them clam up, or expressing some fucking empathy to someone being actively mind controlled!!! and yeah. i was a piece of shit when i was )(ers. im not denying that. i wasnt fun to be around. i couldnt be. but im trying to be better. and so what if i play puppy with people i love? so what if i have some fucking fun in between processing all the fucking blood on my hands?? you have no idea how much this all hurts 200 years. 200 years of having )(er in my head, having no choice but to accept everything s)(e told me, and then suddenly s)(e's gone. a part of my brain just dies on me and i have to pick up the pieces. and then i dare to discuss that trauma and you walk in like "LOL U ENJOYED IT LOL U ASKED 4 IT WHAT A DUMB BITCH" so yeah im going to get a little fucking pissed!
i think you might be putting words and feelings in my mouth that straight up bippity boppity ass conjured that shit out of nonexistance ive literally never said lol you enjoyed it lol you asked for it what a dumb bitch until literally just now and that was to point out how fucking stupid that sounds and also not like me i said lol you would because you yourself admit you enjoyed being a pawn thats it it doesnt go any deeper than that this isnt me hitting you with a big fuckmassive victim blamey stick that reads it was your fault you got used for two hundred years you silly little goose you unfuckwithably stupid cunt munchkin i am pointing out yes you would enjoy being a pawn you still do youve just crowdfunded thinking for yourself instead of getting capital investments from one huge evil bitch
now whos putting words in whose mouth you dont know how i think you dont know what i do in my real life you dont know the work i have to put in to remind myself how to be a fucking person and for the record you would enjoy it, too. being her pawn. you wouldnt have any other choice.
i literally do know what you think in limited very specific scenarios namely when you broadcast your thoughts fucking publicly that is the very nature of posting things all those super secret dead diary do not eat or read psyche locks all those super complicated brainy encryptions yeah they dont apply here where you just blurt shit out i know exactly the work you have to put in to remind yourself how to be a fucking person maybe not in sum total but i literally just got through explaining to you why killing someone because youre mad probably isnt a good fucking idea you have free will now and youre learning how to use it and for the record i would not enjoy that shit too there is always a choice no matter how hard somebody like her tries to take it away from you youre here she isnt thats your choice you stuck it out you did what you felt you had to survive thats why it matters that you hear you shouldnt off someone good class remember to do the daily required reading and read to page one hundred and one of how not to be a murderous douchebitch one o one