[VIDEO LOG 1] *the video starts With hakrust preparing dinner looking doWn, his face paint Was cleaned off, not unusual after a Workout but its been off longer than norMal, his body still in a cold sWeat his hands havent reached for the knife to prepare dinner he had been off all day sure but it there Was a nervous tension in the air* *The troll Mekias had been sitting aWay froM the table, pretending to look at Whatever played on their tv While actually scrolling on his phone When the silence began bothering hiM, the unusual behaviour of his friend finally ticking hiM off enough to abandon the screen and talk, pushing hiMself up froM the couch and sitting doWn at the kitchen counter, snapping his fingers in front of Hakrust's face.* MM: hey dude, What's got you so off GA: Huh What, nah its nothing iM fine MM: right, and i Wiggled out the Mothergrub yesterday. DonΒ΄t think iM this stupid Hak- [#NOTSTUPID] UGH sorry *Mekias took off his visor, keeping it beside hiM.* Did anything happen today? GA: I, i guess its not that iMportant just fucking duMbshit okay? Ill be fine i alWays aM. *hakrust puts one of his hands in his pockets,he also has one his jackets only halfWay on, on side of his body* MM: yo if you don't spit it i'M going to get angry, and i'll probably take over the cooking Which is soMething NONE of us Want GA: Jesus fine okay, dont threaten to burn the house doWn relax Just, uhM fuck its hard for Me to be vulnerable you knoW this, its Weird and Weak and shit, iM not Weak MM: *Mekias laughed. SyMpathetically of course, but a laugh, nonetheless. It Was hard to get to hiM, this Was pretty coMMon betWeen theM.* Right, i knoW! CalM your bits bud, just take your tiMe GA: Eugh, its just fuck. Do you think, iM like easily taken advantage of? *hakrust looks at Mekias, sWeating a bit More* AM i stupid, do i deserve this.? God dont ansWer that just- MM: ... What? What!? Hell, fuck no I'll ansWer that alright, and My ansWer is that you really don't I don't knoW hoW you've been getting in these situations, but you certainly don't call for eM GA: Eugh, fucking hell iM alWays being treated like iM a runt, thats Why i just- iM just protecting Myself so i dont get hurt but every tiMe- every fucking tiMe I just aM pathetic, fucking hell people just use Me and abuse Me like soMe sort of fucking toy, i never get treated like iM soMebody, huMan or troll i still get treated the saMe Its like soMe cruel fucking joke on Me. IM alWays going to be a pathetic toy for soMeone to use and exercise, god My life is a joke MM: Well they shouldn't. You're a norMal person, i've honestly been Meaning to say a feW Words bout this Whole thing for a While, but I Wasn't sure hoW they'd *actually* Made you feel. GA: You could insult Me at this point and i think id take at as Well as an old Man falling doWn the stairs Wtv just tell Me MM: HA HA, no duMbass. Ain't no one deserves to be treated the Way you do. No Matter hoW Much of an ass you can be at tiMes on your little chittr idk, everyone just goes too far. GA: I guess, fucking hell, is it Weird they Make Me Miss When i used to be younger, at least When he Was hurting Me he Wasnt treating Me like shit, at least, i think he Wanted Me. I dont knoW, its stupid and then eugh. Mekias today this- i dont knoW Who the fuck just Was eugh doing disgusting shit While i Was trying to be a dick, i dont knoW its getting to Me, is this What a relapse is like? Fucking hell i try to get attention fron fuckWads Who dont care for Me and then i just- eugh i hate it, i think iM starting to hate Myself I hate What i do, i hate being a dick at tiMes, i just aM sloWly just hating every fucking thing about Me More than i hate others MM: ... That's a process Hak, i think your case is coMplicated, but you shouldn't go back to... That, and it's soMething We should talk about With a clearer head alright. *Mekias sighed, placing a hand on his shoulder and patting softly.* GA: I guess, ya, can We say screW it With the steW for tonight and Make soMe shitty cup raMen, iM not in the Mood to cook or for you to burn the house doWn MM: LOL, yeah i'M alright With shitty cup raMen Hey Hak GA: Ya? Wsp MM: I think you're pretty great, freeloader and all. Being an ass gives you a nice charM, and you'll get More people that like you for that on the Way. Just let yourself see. GA: Pfft, Whatever Man, cheese alert aM i right? But uh thanks i guess, for not Making fun of Me While iM vulnerable, Just uh sit on the couch or soMething, ill be out With raMen in a second, MM: Right, a true bro Would never, and that I aM. Thank you, and you better join Me later, the shoWs pretty funny GA: I got nothing better to do, Wtv ya ill Watch Whatever duMb shit you got on @gethAckexloser CW : #sensitivetopics ? #Mentionsof #relapsing https://cdn.corenexis.coM/f/n5aW3OOAJ3I.jpg
