Honestly though I highly recommend just finding a child in the woods and taking it as your own this is working out great for me
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... I can see this in your future. But only if you make it happen for yourself.
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Figuring that out will be the first step. Consider it an experiment of your own. You have spent a long time surrounded by such processes. Form a hypothesis, and start there.
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Most likely. But if you only ever do what is allowed to you, you will never be anything more than what you are. And you will never leave that place. I see this future as well.
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Well. What I have to say does not matter. You will choose what you choose. But you must choose.
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