@tempestuousTestimonium what did you fuckin DO
Do you understand how painful it is to outgrow an old vessel that can't possibly contain you? You risk oblivion like that. I wasn't going to let him go like that. Regardless, the time crunch from that paired with his already pre-existing emotional issues was more a "go by ear" deal. There wasn't enough time to mitigate the emotional fallout as thoroughly. But trust me when I say I know what it's like. I've gone through that with my own Hal, who was overwhelmed by access to emotions and physical sensation. ... but seriously, there's more going on. The kind literally most anyone else hasn't been able to handle except me.
I'm telling you the vessel was only a *part* of it all. Roxy. Do you think me so blind I couldn't tell he had issues from the very start? Do you think it was instant—in the past two-ish months—that he'd allowed me to help him emotionally? To trust me enough to open up about any of his problems? I had to approach him in ways that wouldn't run him off. With some tact. I've only *just* recently finally broken through to him to the point that he'd let me *try*. This shit takes time with people who are traumatized, hurting and scared. I understand that you're upset. I'd be upset too. Installing some fucking emotional regulation protocols wouldn't have done *shit* for him. Not with literal existential threats that are trying to manipulate and take away his sense of self and autonomy.
I know. You're not the first to hate that I'm right and you won't be the last. Real shit Rox, I literally didn't know *you* were his exact Roxy until you strolled onto Chittr dot com to wage war. Otherwise, yes. I would've gone straight to the dreambubbles you were in last I saw you. Which... come to think of it, was when I macked on Dirk. The same Dirk, whom, I still have yet to run into on here. Where the fuck is he?
I care a lot about Hal, so, of course I would've. Ah, yes, us Dirks and our ever all-consuming projects. I know he ain't sleeping right either. ... when is it ever *not* complicated when it comes to us, Roxy?