Roxy Lalonde
@rogueishGnostalgic
ngl i made this bc i was asked to do it
@containedArmageddons well drop ur fuckin location to me whenevs an ill hyu for that kiss
0h, right. usually i do the hivecalls. sending.
@twwiinAquariium thin ice
iit"2 wwhat ii do..
@turingTranscendence i am fuckin livid im trackin ur location an u have no fuckin idea
I- I've gotten help from outside sources.
I am very busy, my love.
Nono. Ult Dirk helped me a lot.
Please, I am trying. Emotions are a new concept.
I'm working on it. I promise. I've not even blown up and... something terrible happened yesterday. I maintained some calm.
@tempestuousTestimonium what did you fuckin DO
Do you understand how painful it is to outgrow an old vessel that can't possibly contain you? You risk oblivion like that. I wasn't going to let him go like that. Regardless, the time crunch from that paired with his already pre-existing emotional issues was more a "go by ear" deal. There wasn't enough time to mitigate the emotional fallout as thoroughly. But trust me when I say I know what it's like. I've gone through that with my own Hal, who was overwhelmed by access to emotions and physical sensation. ... but seriously, there's more going on. The kind literally most anyone else hasn't been able to handle except me.
I'm telling you the vessel was only a *part* of it all. Roxy. Do you think me so blind I couldn't tell he had issues from the very start? Do you think it was instant—in the past two-ish months—that he'd allowed me to help him emotionally? To trust me enough to open up about any of his problems? I had to approach him in ways that wouldn't run him off. With some tact. I've only *just* recently finally broken through to him to the point that he'd let me *try*. This shit takes time with people who are traumatized, hurting and scared. I understand that you're upset. I'd be upset too. Installing some fucking emotional regulation protocols wouldn't have done *shit* for him. Not with literal existential threats that are trying to manipulate and take away his sense of self and autonomy.
I know. You're not the first to hate that I'm right and you won't be the last. Real shit Rox, I literally didn't know *you* were his exact Roxy until you strolled onto Chittr dot com to wage war. Otherwise, yes. I would've gone straight to the dreambubbles you were in last I saw you. Which... come to think of it, was when I macked on Dirk. The same Dirk, whom, I still have yet to run into on here. Where the fuck is he?
I care a lot about Hal, so, of course I would've. Ah, yes, us Dirks and our ever all-consuming projects. I know he ain't sleeping right either. ... when is it ever *not* complicated when it comes to us, Roxy?
@turingTranscendence omfg what the hell am i actually readin THIS is what you have been up to??
Oh. Hello Roxy.
I am being very good, I do not know what you speak of.
🥺 I am trying to be good, Roxy.
I'm just a kitty cat~ 🐱
i havent even fuckin posted yet but jake was blowin up my fuckin phone WTF is goin on @golgothasTerror#1984
Roxy!!! Thank the stars youre finally here. I believe im slowly being driven to the brink of madness by that villainous ar. Hes trying to convince me the man crooning to himself isnt him just pretending to be out good buddy dirk but is actually the man himself!!!
He isn't villainous. I'd appreciate it if you'd fucking stop framing him like he's evil. I'm half tempted to let you believe we're the same guy though. Can't handle a little self love, bro?
There are outside factors you're also entirely unaware of, Roxy. Yes, he has a complex about Dirks. I won't deny that. But there is more to those moments where he was losing his shit.