

ero ⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖
@sakuranBaby
⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺ i know that i am haunted to be wanted
i want to be punished, i think.
it's fine. i can't always have what i want. i should know that already, but somehow it still aches. i want to do something bad. but i have to get better. i'm useless like this.
he told me to be good and i hate itttt. how annoying, because i -need- to be good. but i wanna be bad, just because he said it...!!!
どうって事ないさ 大丈夫きっと #lyricposting
赤い血の意味は 生きている証と 罪と罰のせいさ #lyricposting
... is it bad form to have black feelings for your moirail's red...?
あなたの隣に 居させて下さい あなたが在るなら 私も在りたい #lyricposting
no no no 何なのこの気持ち ケダモノみたい #lyricposting
... what's it like to feel pitch for someone.
no way no way no way no way no way no way no way for the record i still think i am likely crazy but he really likes me??? really? ok. maybe things can get better. maybe.
glad my last chit was so ███████ relatable. what if it said i should be able to ████ them instead. #suggestive #violence
i shouldn't have come here, but i know my hive would be unlivable. i don't even feel scared here now. i just don't feel anything. is it better that way?
i don't know now. anger's gone. i think even two wipes ago i would be happy about that, i was angry all the time, but now instead of just sinking into nothing i just have to sit here and fucking think about it. can't even bite my nails. i wanna get high so bad. i think i'd do anything. is that a choice? #substance
i can say whatever i want. it's way too easy. and everyone fawns over me and tells me i'm doing so well, and i'm so brave and strong. and it all feels so empty, because i'm not. getting. better. i'm getting worse. and i can't have what i need. and i'm getting so angry.
ちぎれた体に救いはない https://open.spotify.com/track/7tlyesunar7uz0wdoqbmno

