@tentativelyTenebrous — #buraisposting
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K--<im not even burais any more do you think she would give me a second chance #buraisposting
-<i knew from night one that it wouldnt last and that theyd turn their backs on me like they always do but i persevered anyway and kept trying to make team chud work even though it was so OBVIOUS none of them wanted anything to do with me #buraisposting>-
-<#buraisposting is going to make a return. block that tag if you hate seeing my patheticness. this is your warning.>-
[SCHEDULED POST] #buraisposting K--<Posting is Life, and Posting is Death. I have scheduled a series of posts to go up automatically if I do not use my palmhusk for more than 24 hours. Please enjoy the Burais Posthumous Collection.
K--<poison is my medicine and medicine is my poison and i exist in the void between life and death #buraisposting
K--<#buraisposting my pan is wound tighter than the springs poking through my mattress the world around me loses its colour as friendships turn to memories the light behind my screen is the only one that guides me the days turn to minutes and the hours turn to weeks am i myself? or am i what other people think i am? am i the words i say? or the words i type? am i even a person? or am i an identity? how is a cyborg supposed to detox from technology?
K--<if i hadnt cried so much if i hadnt been so clingy if i had been a better person maybe she wouldve loved me #buraisposting
K--<she never loved me back like i loved her #buraisposting
K--<i iwllnot be eating today as i donot deserve food any more #cw-self-harm #buraisposting
K--<iwould stab myself through the pusher if she would hold me like suhe used to as ib led out #cw-self-harm #buraisposting
K--<i just woke up dont tell me to go back to sleep i woke up because i had the dream i had the dream aghain i dont want . to face the dream agian #buraisposting
K--<if i hide in my cupe the world cant hurt mme #buraisposting
K--<she made me feel like i was enough like nobody else ever had and then one day i wasnt enough anymore #buraisposting
K--<shewas the only one wh oever made me feel real like i was realy reall land not just lookign at tyhe world througj a window nad shes gone now becAUSE I FUCKED UIT UP I FUCKED IT UP I FUCK IT UPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #buraisposting
K--<imnot calling her im not im not im not in mont im not im, not going to #buraisposting
K--<ihad the dream again and we had breakfast and we had tea and it was wonderful and she hugged me and she hugged me and she hugged me and she hugged me and all of my friends werre there and none of them hated me anymore they forgave me everyone forgave me and i wasnt a stupid fucked up failure and she hugged me in her cupe like she ueed to #buraisposting
K--<last light i had the dream again the dream where we meet again and i apologise to her and she forgives me and says she still loves me and that im still enough for her and she hugs me like she used to and i feel like im allowed to be alive againanand the world makess ense again and sh eamakes me special with her reflected light again i ad the dream again #buraisposting
K--<i wish i wasnt me #buraisposting
K--<my... my life... could be better off... without her????? #buraisposting https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97UR9ixfr0M
K--<maybe... im... better off... without her??? #buraisposting
K--<if i wasnt so fucking hot idk what else id have to live for #buraisposting
K--<i wish i was a good person so good things could happen to me and failing that i wish i was a bad enough person that i couldve turned a blind eye #buraisposting
K--<my wriggling day is coming up soon and we were supposed to spend it together #buraisposting
K--<when she said she loved me it felt like my life had meaning and there was a point to it all and for one precious moment i felt like i was okay with the person i am and then it was gone #buraisposting
K--<i miss her a lot she made me feel like i was allowed to be alive #buraisposting
K--<i feel really really bad #buraisposting
K--<im scared that im going to be like this forever #buraisposting
K--<i dont feel like myself without her #buraisposting
K--<fuck all people who r happier than me you are toxic + privileged #buraisposting
K--<all of my friends are dudes and it sucks because i am treated like one of the dudes too which is not gender affirming #buraisposting
K--<i am never getting involved in a long distance relationship again btw like i would rather die than go through that shit again no hate to those they work for but i am going to start hurting myself if i cant cuddle a girlfriend again soon and being given girlfriend with no cuddle would be the ultimate torment to my fractured psyche #buraisposting #cw-self-harm
K--<#buraisposting #cw-self-harm (implied) she is the reason im still alive and i dont know if that was a kindness or a curse given the state shes left me in now
K--<its been 3 months since ive been happy #buraisposting
K--<she said she loved me and she said she meant it and she said she wanted to be with me why wasnt it true #buraisposting