@timelessGodhead — #violence
i want him to hurt me but i dont like it when hes disappointed in me or mad at me. gives me a real nasty sinking feeling in my chest. like just awful. so im kinda in a lose lose situation here.
its as if something in the universe saw my last post and wanted to fuck with me. some little shitstain is clearly making moves on him and im not even allowed to tell him off. i have no proof that his intentions are fucked but i know this shit. he acts just as stupid and pathetic as i did when i was crushing on dirk. im gonna bash his fucking head in.
well i dont think anything could have prepared me for that shit. i have a black eye im still catching my breath and my ass is really sore. no more pissing off dirk.
trying to prepare yourself for a punishment youre entirely in the dark about is not fun. all i know is that hes gonna make it hurt and im not looking forward to it. guess its what i get for fucking around but damn.