WELL, YEAH, I DIDN’T HAVE A HAND. THAT’S THE PROBLEM.
MAYBE IT’S A STUPID FUCKING THING TO BLAME MYSELF FOR. NOT CHOOSING TO BREAK SPECIES WIDE, BLOOD BOUND TRADITION WHEN I DIDN’T EVEN HAVE A REASON TO. BUT I SPENT SO MUCH TIME WASTING MY LIFE BEING AWFUL WITH THE EXCUSE OF “IT’S IN MY BLOOD” AND “I HAD TO”. I DUNNO.