Here - we go - ... - It got - a bit - darker than - I meant to - Sorry > ---- Knots are confusing So very many types The silliest names for them Frayed Knot Overhead Knot Square Knot Sheet Bend As many types, As the stars I wonder If I tied one over my throat Would that be enough? Enough to exist I should do more If I tie it enough Will I stop Will I be fixed? I can feel the stares The judgement Eyes of a Predator Circling much like a hunt I wonder If I tie an knot Perhaps I could suffocate them all If I did so, Am I just a predator of the same? Like poisoned wine No one will know Will they? Blurry memeories of what there was The minimum given to all If I am to be of my blood I would wish to remove all trace Mourn someone great Ignore the failure of current If I tie a knot What might I do What if I did What if I acted harshly What if I lived up to horror Yet I don't I didn't I don't want to If I tied the knot Will I lose myself The shine I was told of For I was special Wasn't I? I was special as they cared Didn't they care? Knots tied me to them Tighter than with my own lusus Yet If I tied this knot of green ribbon around my throat Will I ever be happy Or I am chasing after Something long since gone Knots are confusing Clove Knot Butterfly Knot Water Knot Which one should I pick... #cw-self-harm #poetry #writing

