#cw-self-harm
Of course I burnt the cigarette out on myself.
First bit of writing I've managed in days and it was written while laying in a bathtub with an inch of water, all while fully clothed and my arms are bleeding...what an interesting combination I apparently required in order for me to write something decent.
I had to lock myself in the bathroom just to get some time to myself, of course I'm not safe in here but it's the only way I'm getting privacy, and if I wish to harm myself that's only partially unrelated.
hospitals suck but its 4 them #cw-blood #cw-hospital #cw-self-harm implied
Fluttershy wouldn’t want me to kill myself so now I’m stuck here I guess. #cw-self-harm
>>| .alright .uhhh. need to get myself .up. .i may go, take some shots .and drinks. some beverage. clean my head .and have some fun .in the .event. so for now. .i hope. really hope. no more friends .of mine, getting .into bad situation. not to mention, the worst .imaginable. .i don't want to go .over this .again. .i can't handle .all .anxiety .and stress .and .other nasty .emotions. .i mean .it. #substance .implied #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
laikas gonna be ok thy just need some time but theyll b ok they def be ok the docs just gonna patch them up a bit beter than i can but itll b ok even if they did do a numbr on themself im not leavin them until i know this isnt just me copin n wishful thinkin #cw-self-harm #cw-hospital
>>| .alright. .uhhh sorry. .i'm good now. .i'm thankful to zemich for the help. sorry .if .i kept some people worry. .it's just.. .i'm just good now that .is .all. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health @normaleveryday
I was correct about the shower helping, I still feel awful and cleaning my injuries was painful, but I do feel substantially better.
Wtf are yoou saying i'm noot goonna kill myself oover soome game lool it's noot that hard 8Ъ
It's been difficult to get left alone today, the moment someone realizes I've been left in a room alone someone will come in just to keep an eye on me. I know this is the system we all agreed on but it can be rather annoying.
>>| .i'll be good. sorry. help .on way #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
i will hunt down whichever one of you convinced laika to hurt themself and i will TEAR YOU TO JAGGED BLOODY PIECES. FEAR THE BIG BAD WOLF.
>>| sorry .i may passt .out no.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry... .i.. .i'm good, just time... just pain to .ease my feelings... sorry... but she .is fine? .i saw her .earlier... .i .am sorry.. https://hive.beeb.trl/posts/img_083.png #gore #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
what the fu(k kind of time pla7er is late like that? what the fu(k kind of person bound to the aspe(t of the end (an’t kill themself when the7 (ut their own god damn head off? it’s a good thing we have eternit7, karama, be(ause b7 then i might forgive 7ou! #(w-self-harm #gore #sui(ide
>>| . .. sorrry. .i.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry.. give me some time please.. .i'm sory this .isjust too much.. no.. .i.... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i... .i'm sorry. .i... this .is just... fucked .up. .i so. .i .am so sorry.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
c< A videO, 4 all Of yOu, its scHeduled 2 pOst teN MiNutes after My deatH.... dONt watcH if yOu dONt waNNa see Me die, Or, My fucKed up 4M >c -- megaloMemes [MM] uploaded a video. Unquirk to view. --
>>| self harm free for .a week. that's nice, but .i have better score.. .i wonder. no .implications .of #cw-self-harm
I need someone to bash my skull in, or just put me out of my misery in general it doesn't have to be gruesome, though preferably I be killed in a gruesome manner.
I've locked myself in my study again... I don't feel safe in here anymore. It's becoming a place of self induced pain and mental suffer.
Typically either the blood or the sting will make me feel less empty and yet here we are. I suppose I feel disgusting, and like a waste, though even those thoughts are clouded in the blur of numbness that's overcome me as of late.
I̶͎̝͌̾͠t̵͙̦͋̑̚͠'̷̬̪̆š̸̤̺̟͜ ̶̬͔̬̓̾̀̄ņ̶͎̹̼̀͆̅́o̸̠͍̲̪̅͗̉́t̴̹̍͌̚ ̷̩͐͆̆e̸̺̥͎̓n̸̫̖͙̈ó̴͚̹͙͇̅͊̾ŭ̴̥̱̙̋ͅĝ̴̤̰̓͐h̴̩̻̱̬͛͆̈́̋.̴̢͔̦͓̄͐
How ironic is it that somedays the only things that give me life are those that could kill me?
꒰ঌ My moirail quit chittr I’m killing myself. #cw-self-harm ໒꒱
It just needs to be deep enough and hurt enough to matter.
Having sucidal ideation beginning at the age of eleven isn't a good sign of things to come, frankly good luck ever leaving that thought process at that point within the next fifteen-ish years.
i_would_like_to_touch_the_bug_zapper_too_*<:)_it_sounds_invigorating_#cw-self-harm
weeDD ♀ha♀ kills you
some days i’ll be doing fantastic like im livin the best life and then suddenly i’ll just be suicidal idk why depression + ptsd mix got me fighting demons #cw-self-harm #cw-trauma
im gonna be real honest i dont think i will ever properly recover from this the thought of eating anything makes me more nauseous than i already am not to mention my stomach hurts like hell after eating a meal this kinda sucks
This sucks so bad I need to *remembers suicide jokes only worsen my mental health* put my head inside a red box.
I need to go to bed before I make a mistake...
i legit somehow missed someone killing someone right in front of me, like legit right in front of me in amongus slamming my head through a wall as i speak #amongus #cw-self-harm (just in case)
> maybe 1 2hould ju2t let the horror2 take me at th12 po1nt #cw-2elf-harm <
shoulDD i come burn myself on ♀he bug zapper ♀oo i feel lef♀ ou♀
#cw-self-h★rm condition★l immort★lity is over★ll good but it's ★ little bit of ★ p★in. Like I h★ve this di★logue with myself every once in ★ while ★nd it goes like this "Hey I should find ★ liquid th★t's ★ good ★n★log for w★ter so I c★n see wh★t it's like to drown" "Now why would I do th★t?" "Curious. I'll be fine ★nyw★ys right?" ★nd then I h★ve to sit there ★nd consider th★t.
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: @nightterrorpsychologist it Feels Like Second Nature By The Time You Reach 14. you Wake Up Feeling Awful, You Didn't Even Get A Full 5 Hours In So You Go To Make A Cup Of Coffee, There's A Reason You Keep The Coffee Maker In Your Room Now. it's Practically Routine. you Don't Remember Who You Were Talking To But You've Been More Irritable Lately, The Blood On Your Arms Is The Only Blanket Of Comfort You Have. it's Practically Routine. you Go Out For A Walk, Once Again A Small Part Of Your Brain Hoping To Die. It Would Be So Easy To Jump Into The Falls....Read more
W̵̫̩͕͍̪̯̐̆̽̍̕ã̷̩͕̣͇̫̼ņ̴̛͒͂̆t̴̟͍͗̌̔̇͠ ̸͕̝̄̃͌͋͂t̸͉̗͕̖͗͊̒o̶̘̗͐̒̄̈̕ ̷̢̛͎͔͕̎̀̄̕͝ͅḥ̷̦͙̓̊u̴̘̩̣̞͌̀̇̉̆̚͝r̶̻͊̕͝ṯ̵͆̃͗͆̑͠͠ ̴̥͇̅̐̎̏̅w̴̢̧̞̟̄͜a̸̰̖͑͘n̶͍͊͐̆͌t̸̡̙̼̓̽̀́̐͝͝ ̵̱̽̂̋̎̚t̸̳̍̾̌̎̚͝ỏ̷̜͈̙̘̓͛̋̚͘ ̶̣̜̐̇h̵̺͗̋̆ṳ̶̪̣̳̘̦̒̏ͅŗ̴̲̙̓̑̄͛̕t̴͎͍̗̓̀̿ ̸̛̠͂̅͆̆͆̐N̵͎͈͗̅̚E̵̠̓̏Ė̵̼͔̺̫̥͌͘͝D̴̟̞̀ͅ ̴̞͙͇͓̙̊͗̈͘͜͠T̷̢͚̦̜͕́ͅO̵̞̠̠͋̇̓̇̓̏̚ ̵͖̓͌̋H̸͚̟̉̄͘̚U̷̝̅̓̈́̓R̷̢͎̮̜͍͔̈́͗͒T̴̳̗͈̗̻̎̎.̸̨̰̫̦̞̻̤̔̑͌̆̔
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: Ƙ₳ηҝᴚเ.....? you Keep Thinking About Your Past. You Keep Thinking About Who You Were Raised By Under The Culling Program. The Memories You Repressed. The Memories You Didn't Want To Remember. The Things You Just Pushed Away To Forget. You Only Wanted To Remember The Good. Even If That Meant Having Large Memory Gaps. and Yet. The Pain Stayed. Deeply Hidden In Your Mind. Only To Be Uncovered By Subtle Reminders And An Old Photo. you Couldn't Handle The Memory. You Wanted A Way To Cope. You Ended Up Relapsing. You Would Always Cut Yourself As A Kid To Get ...Read more
I had forgotten until recently how calming it can be so stare at my own blood pouring out of a wound I know for fact I caused.
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: @nightterrorpsychologist you're Alone, The Storm Continues To Rage Above, "אלוהים יעזור לי." You Mutter. why Did You Go Out Again? why Do You Keep Praying For Help? you Don't Want Help. there's Something In These Woods, And It's Violent. you Know If You Run Into It You'll Be Ripped To Shreds. what A Painful End, Your Flesh Hanging Loose, Your Organs Falling Out. What A Horrible Desire For An 11 Year Old Girl To Hold. you Don't Know When The Desire Arose, But It Haunted You, Picking At The Back Of Your Mind. "it'll Go Away, I'll Feel Better Soon." You ...Read more
jus♀ rolleDD ♀he mos♀ pa♀he♀ic piece of shi♀ join♀ al♀ernia has ever seen i shoulDD cull myself i♀'s so baDD
It has been... A r<>ugh c<>uple <>f nights. I need... I am n<>t even sure what. I d<> n<>t even have the energy t<> carry <>n with the insufferable r<>leplay pers<>na. I d<> n<>t even feel like a tr<>ll, much less a pers<>n. I am s<> tired #cw-mental-health #cw-self-harm
he7 (ould someone (ome and kill me again. preferabl7 shattering m7 skull into a million pie(es. ma7be when i (ome ba(k to life this time i won't have whatever's sinking teeth into m7 thinkpan. thanks. #violen(e #gore #(w-self-harm ma7be a little
someone_please_come_just_hold_a_pillow_over_my_face_so_i_can_go_to_sleepies_please_#cw-self-harm_#notserious_#violence
LOST THE WHORE-OFF TO A HUMAN. SHOULD I #CW-SELF-HARM MYSELF. #CRONUSBABEOFF.
i would never kill my self i love masturbating too much