#cw-suicidal-ideation
▼being strangled to death by rose wouldn't be the worst way to go...▲
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: @thespiantestified. you Don’t Know How You Began To Feel This Way. you Suppose It Was Somewhere Around Your Thirteenth Birthday. When You Finally Met—no, Were Finally *revealed* To Your Extended Family. now That’s A Real Drama, You Think. Fit For Tv, Twenty Season Run, Would Top The Charts Instantly. you Remember That Day Well, Surprisingly. Or, Maybe Not So Surprisingly. The Night Before Was When It Really All Started. your Sister Had Informed You And Your Siblings That You All, In Fact, Had Quite The Extended Family, All Of Whom Never Even Knew You E...Read more
⦓ She would never have done something stupid. I wish she was here. I wish I was the one who had died instead. ⦔
I d<> enj<>y wandering thr<>ugh this land. Perhaps <>ne <>f th<>se puzzles will crush me. Maybe the rain will dr<>wn me. <>r I will get l<>st and never get <>ut. Like I am l<>st in my <>wn pan. I cann<>t see the egress. #cw-suicidal-ideati<>n #cw-mental-health
Something bad is going to happen, I wonder if it has anything to do with how much I've been thinking about dying.
Perhaps my buried alive concept is too generic but the more I think about it the more I realize I'd rather have someone murder me in a horrific and nightmarish manner than to die by my own hands... A part of it is to lessen my guilt over these feelings I will admit.
hoping for a vision of my own death sometime soon #cw-suicidall-ideation #butasajoke
How ironic is it that somedays the only things that give me life are those that could kill me?
Having sucidal ideation beginning at the age of eleven isn't a good sign of things to come, frankly good luck ever leaving that thought process at that point within the next fifteen-ish years.
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: @nightterrorpsychologist you're Alone, The Storm Continues To Rage Above, "אלוהים יעזור לי." You Mutter. why Did You Go Out Again? why Do You Keep Praying For Help? you Don't Want Help. there's Something In These Woods, And It's Violent. you Know If You Run Into It You'll Be Ripped To Shreds. what A Painful End, Your Flesh Hanging Loose, Your Organs Falling Out. What A Horrible Desire For An 11 Year Old Girl To Hold. you Don't Know When The Desire Arose, But It Haunted You, Picking At The Back Of Your Mind. "it'll Go Away, I'll Feel Better Soon." You ...Read more
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