#cw-suicidal-ideation
Something bad is going to happen, I wonder if it has anything to do with how much I've been thinking about dying.
Perhaps my buried alive concept is too generic but the more I think about it the more I realize I'd rather have someone murder me in a horrific and nightmarish manner than to die by my own hands... A part of it is to lessen my guilt over these feelings I will admit.
hoping for a vision of my own death sometime soon #cw-suicidall-ideation #butasajoke
How ironic is it that somedays the only things that give me life are those that could kill me?
Having sucidal ideation beginning at the age of eleven isn't a good sign of things to come, frankly good luck ever leaving that thought process at that point within the next fifteen-ish years.
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: @nightterrorpsychologist you're Alone, The Storm Continues To Rage Above, "אלוהים יעזור לי." You Mutter. why Did You Go Out Again? why Do You Keep Praying For Help? you Don't Want Help. there's Something In These Woods, And It's Violent. you Know If You Run Into It You'll Be Ripped To Shreds. what A Painful End, Your Flesh Hanging Loose, Your Organs Falling Out. What A Horrible Desire For An 11 Year Old Girl To Hold. you Don't Know When The Desire Arose, But It Haunted You, Picking At The Back Of Your Mind. "it'll Go Away, I'll Feel Better Soon." You ...Read more
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