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D---> I sometimes wonder Does anyone else ever have such a...disgusted feeling whenever they seem their own body in the reflection? Or a desire to change to be your true self and not something you were born as? Oh to be free and not to be forced into roles and being seen as masculine. It's hell. #Genderdysphoria #bodydysphoria #Tonight-is-BAD #vent #rant
:33 < i picked up arrowmaking a few years ago :33 < back then, i suppawse i just wanted to cling to the mewmories of him in any way i could, even if it hurt, and even if i was the one who put an end to what we had :33 < but nowadays, i shoot those arrows myself, with a bow i carved from scratch :33 < and i dont think ive efur felt more fr33 #vent ?
mfw woke up and phone say's its like 5pm mfw woke up at all idk why i been asleep until the evening but i feel like complete shit #vent?
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Q81: "* Kris, your strat super mega sucks." (Susie) A81: do i have to put in bold fucking letter's in my bio "I AM NOT KRIS MOTHERFUCKING DREEMURR" before random's stop deadnaming me? i dont give a fuck about deltarune the comic or its shitty rpg equivalent. i just live in the mansion/bunker/whatever of the guy whos fucking writing it. leave me tf alone. and if this shit was on purpose then cull yourself dude #qna #vent https://forms.gle/3p7xuaHPga6o28Yn6
god my throat hurt's. fucking threw up cause my dumbshit brain cant handle strong genuine emotions. i mean, fucking people i like, sure thats one thing, whatever. but actually feeling a strong romantic attraction has it going fucking haywire #vent? #sure
I DON'T LIKE MY MIND, I DON'T LIKE BEING LEFT ALONE IN A ROOM WITH ALL ITS OPINIONS ABOUT THE THINGS THAT I'VE DONE SO, YEAH, I BLAST MUSIC LOUD AND I WORK MYSELF TO THE BONE I DON'T LIKE MY MIND - MITSKI
꒰ঌ Why the fuck did she haVe to do that to me. I miss him so fucking bad #Vent ໒꒱
// convention day! I don't want to be here ☝️ #vent
You make me feel sick to my fucking stomach. Nothing is ever enough for you, is it? #vent
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thank's brain i love not being able to breathe from random panic attack because of feeling's so awesome so cool mhmhmmhmhmhmhmhmm #vent
It’s late but I simply don’t want to sleep. late nighttime is a secret area outside of time where nothing matters and time lasts foreVer.
𑄝 Sitting with people I love, but because im not getting any attention even by 1 person, mentally spiraling. If you deal with this, ur not a freak and I see you <33 #mental-health #vent ? #BPD ੭
will i get one day where i dont end up feeling like shit goddamn i gotta stop complaining its making me look like im exhausting to deal with which is maybe true but i dont want it to be obvious #vent
⛧sometimes there is a deep rage that sprouts from nowhere that can only be solved by headbutting someone until my forehead reaches tonsils. #gore #violence #vent⛧
^^#Vent^^ ^^i knoW theY saY to neVer trust hoW You feel about Your life at daWn^^ ^^but do You eVer feel Your existence is pointless?^^ ^^that's Where i'm at, essentiallY.^^
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Been thinking a lot about the night I got it out. About Susie finding me by the lake, barely conscious. About how she got Mom to rush me to the hospital... I died that night, I think, because the next thing I remember is waking up on an autopsy table with that stupid scar on my chest. After the doctor got over his shock, he said he found remnants of another soul in my body and pieced them back together to save me. That was the first time in forever that my parents actually talked to each other. #vent I guess.
why did i have to change maybe if i never changed i wouldnt have fucked up maybe if i never changed hed still be happy with me maybe if i never changed everything would be better #vent
why did i ever even say yes if i repressed everything denied i was gay never found out i was trans maybe theyd be happier maybe id be less of a failure maybe id be good for something if i never even talked to them after the session i fucked it up its my fault i lost him and theres fucking nothing i can do about it #vent
everything was for him i was trying so hard #vent
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exactly why i did it btw #vagueposting #vent #cw-suicide #cw-self-harm
,..i don't.,. know how much,., longer i can keep.,, doing this.., #vent #vagueposting
im gettin a lil tired of dealin w all this strider bs ngl #vent
i have some incredibly unpopular opinions that should be shared only with a trusted professional. #vent #dashwatching
okay im a pretty chill dude and i aint about to make shit into a big fuckin federal issue when its unequivocally not so i never talk about it but like holy taint chafing fuck dude it is all kinds of depressing to be down to your last $30 literally what am i actually doing fucking wrong i have two jobs dawg im gettin crushed over here give me a damn break my rent isnt even that much where is it all going
I already suspect today will be another shit show...just one of my own making this time around.
please make the screaming jn my brainstop please jmsorry im srry im sorryi just want it toend jjst let me sleep just let me die skemthing anythijg #vent
anyone whos ever been nice to me is a FUCKING LIAR and im going to die alone exactly like i deserve and like i fucking SHOULD HAVE back on earth. in a fucking alleyway AND I DONT EVEN GET TO FUCKING PASS OUT BECAUSE THE NOISE WONT STOP #vent #cw-suicide
i feel like i need to fucking scream until my lungs bleed and i dont even know why my brain is doing this. WHY ARE YOU SO FUCKING NEGATIVE ALL. THE. TIME. YOU WERE FINE LIKE 10 FUCKING MINUTE'S AGO CAN YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP #vent
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i dont care anymore im letting it go he died he died he died and he wasnt mine #vent #vague #incest
move on he wont be lonely without you you offered him everything he wont care move on dont be an idiot for a heartless guy just because he tricked you into thinking he cared ugh he wears your brothers face #vague #vent #incest
yknow a reply i have commonly gotten throughout my life is the fact i gotta develop a real personality and like. mannn thats so meeann i at least wanna pretend i have a real one <:( obv i clearly dont have much to myself other than just like, being a gooner. but like. i dont think i have anything else to me anymore. i like to think im nice! but. blehhh waahh boohoohoo #nsfw? #vent
sometimes i wonder stop at wrist? or cut the throat whatever. fuck this. #haiku #vent #cw-selfharm
knife on skin. dagger carving out my life. karma. its my name. karma. its my dagger. karma. its what i deserve. feeling the blood flow is better than feeling nothing at all like some kind of hollow vessel. #poem #iguess #vent #cw-selfharm
Wonderful time for my mental health to remember it doesn't need someone to harass me in order to be abysmal and leave me feeling like shit.
It's really hard to have heehoo silly feelings for me right now with my current home setup. Knowing my family doesn't want me here and that they think I'm stupid is just a lot to have on my mind. It's why I've been absent on most of my accounts. Sorry if you interact with those a lot I'm just trying to keep my head on straight. #vent
i'm gonna scream. what's so hard to understand about "i'll do it once i've finished here"? that's not an invitation for you to sulk and go do it instead, it means i'm gonna get to it in my own time, fuck off. or at least have the decency not to act bitchy about it. i would have fucking done it, if you let me #vent i suppose
why the fuck am i on mood stabilizers if i get sad and lonely at night and cry anyway fuck this im better off my meds anyway <#vent> <but im chill>
Q35: "whats been goin on with u irl karma. u talk about ur roommate and this "doctor" fellow and honestly i dont know any of it and im awfully curious about it" (@tantalizingGonads) A35: me and @restlessAnimal archived an abandoned comic from 2009 called deltarune. somehow that "connected" us to it. then someone hacked into the archive, saying theyd been 'reconnected', and started continuing it as if it hadnt been abandoned. eventually my roommate made a discord for the archive to get automatic update's on it from a bot, and to talk about the weird hacker with reader's. then the hacker, @snaggedWritings,...Read more
I’ve spent so much on you Time and money I get nothing in return but maybe one day you’ll change #abuse #vent #cw-abuse
damn i kinda miss when i was a girl , my timeline bro was so much nicer to me. sexist bullshit #vent #cw-transphobia <implied>
<< dog dave #vent hours. CW for #stockholmsyndrome #impliedincest and #cw-abuse >> i prefer to be rejected by the people i like i want to express my feelings so they'll shut me down and say im disgusting and should never talk to them again and my tail would just wag and i'll quietly comply because thats what i was made to do. constant push and pull of whether i fucking hate them or to beg to be loved a little better. i'm gonna beat my head against the wall ugh
i genuinely hate him so much. he knows how i am and he doesnt care. why would he care? what reason could he possibly have to give a shit about how i feel? why did i think that would ever be a thing? its my fault again. when is it not my fault?? i hope he has a great time talking to fucking loose lips over there. im sure his endless irritating rambling will make him the happiest guy on earth. he says so much but has nothing to say so he doesnt actually have to pay attention to any of it!!!