#vent
..Is it wrong to feel a little bit lonely on a website full of so many wonderful people? I hardly ever see faces I recognize, here. And when I do, They feel so.. Distant. I'll miss their first post in weeks by 10 hours because I was working and taking care of the after-work part of work. Or they'll be the untouchable, the Pinaccle of Class, someone I know I shouldn't be bothering with my favored foolishness. Or they're just.. someone I don't know if I should speak directly to. It's very silly, Maybe. This is, by all measures, meant to be a website for Trolls. That is what it was designed for. And after ...Read more
what am i doing man. the new universe thing was meant to be a fresh start but all i got was being forgotten by the others.. im with a guy i hardly feel anything for. i didnt even get to end up with the guy i wanted.. god tier makes life harder for some reason. i cant even die with out being a horrible person! #vent #yearning #cw-mentalhealth
dont know whether to laugh or cry rn. think im just gonna block and ignore it so i never have to see it again. shouldve done that earlier.
think im just gonna go back to sleep. try and sleep all day before i have a self-destructive episode and do a bunch of awful shit to cut off everyone who cares about me.
this shit along with the failed suicide attempt (why i was gone for a whole week) paired with the gradual increase of depressive episodes and a feeling of deep loneliness even when talking to and hanging out with people i give a fuck about is really doing number's on me. but i guess thats the point. break the vessel until its suitable enough, right? ...wonder if that implies the demon eye thing is the cause of my mental health issue's recently. it isnt, ive always been this way. but i guess itd be nice to have something to blame.
am i even real at least when i was slutting out constantly i felt real. an object is real i dont think i know how to be a person. i dont think thatll ever change
To the l·littl·le shit that vandal·lized my hive, I got a private room and handcuffs with your name on them. #vent #suggestive
its actually been hours since but someone mocked somethin and its actually still pissin me the fuck off im doin my best to just ignore it because it aint that deep, its genuinely the dumbest shit and not important at all but FUCK narcissism is a bitch
Day 1: this reagent hit me 'l·lovingl·ly' in the kisser with a cinderbl·lock. Not a brick not a bottl·le not a rig, a CINDER BLOCK. Got me a l·lovel·ly teal·l impression of said bl·lock across my face. My jaw is presentl·ly swol·ll·len and , Dol·lores if youre reading this you can suck a big fat □□□□. #dail·lyjournal·l #vent #cw-viol·lence
Neve(R) thought I’d mi§§ going to depo§ition§ & taking note§, but I do. We don’t have a (c)ou(R)t §y§tem fully §et up yet, it’§ mo§tly (c)(R)ude thing§ the exile§ & (c)on§o(R)t§ al(R)eady had. The(R)e’§ p(R)obably othe(R) wo(R)ld§ out the(R)e fully developed but I’ve ju§t…not bothe(R)ed (c)he(c)king it out yet. I don’t know how they’d (R)ea(c)t—I don’t wanna be wo(R)§hipped. I mi§§ Alte(R)nia. #vent ™
I wịsh I hªd frịɛnds ºůtsịdɛ mƴ qůªdrªnt... #vɛnt
my situationquadships need to kill me. #wvent #sigh
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〚｟⦕⤊⦖｠〛Sometimes I think my opponents want me to choke them out. I do it normally because I'm not super down to just cull them all but I got two rules when I fight. Don't look at my bulge, and stop trying to lose. There are easier ways to ask me out. #vent #nsfw #wrestling #choking #violence
i kepp havin nitemres #vent
i rly wanted 2 dm her just... finally get 2 know her, yk? but i cant bring myself 2 do it cuz if she knew what happened 2 me, i cant help thinkin shed just see the big fuckin disappointment i am like i took everythin she worked so hard 2 set in motion n somehow still managed 2 waste it all by dyin like a failure
JESUS every time s☀︎me☀︎ne wants t☀︎ h☀︎☀︎k up i find ☀︎ut theyre the m☀︎st VANILLA BITCHES EVER like???? y☀︎u literally just watched me smash a dudes FACE int☀︎ C☀︎NCRETE and appr☀︎ached ME ☀︎ut ☀︎f UR INTEREST. like wdym y☀︎u d☀︎nt like it r☀︎ugh??? why w☀︎uld u ask ME!!! ughhhh #vent #suggestive ig
back on my #yearning shit but like fuck i want him so bad want him like a goddamn mosquito wants those glowy blue lights that zap them on contact im pretty fucking sure im in love with him and he says he likes me we do romantic shit, we sleep together he tells me im his but he hesitates when i bring up dating in passing indirect style cause im real lowkey and im just so certain he doesnt like me like *that* and its gnarly and gutting me but we all know im chained im locked in im fucking myself over and settling for the scraps he tosses in my bowl probably out of like pity or something
⦓ Unclear whether I want affection or want to be as far as possible from the people I don't want to hurt and thus I have ended up #vent posting on chittr instead. My apologies for that. I'm going to... I don't know. Figure it out, I guess. ⦔ ⦓ Hope you all have a good rest of your night or day or whatever time it is for you. ⦔
⦓ Don't go to the places where the memories are that's where the memories are. Except here I am. In my hive. Where the memories are. Except the ones I can't even recall because they were taken from me. There's a whole floor I don't even go in. There's bloodstains I can't scrub out. Things are missing that should have been there. I don't sleep in my respiteblock anymore because it reminds me of her, and I never look at the stairs going up to the gates because the damage done to them reminds me of the final fight. ⦔ ⦓ ... Ugh. Floor time again I guess. What else can I even do? What else even is there? An...Read more
disabilies suck invvisible disabilities suck more like i havve sensitivve gills an it fucks wwith my ability to stay in wwater too long, sure, but at least thats a physical ailment that people take seriously my fatigue and burnout aint and ivve applies specifically to beforian-ghost run businesses because they got their wwhole coddle smother culture and claim to accommodate for disabilities and they still fuckin step on the accommodations i need
⦓ ... And the mood has once again swung down. But I did enjoy the upswing so I hope next time I can hold onto it a little longer... ⦔ ⦓ ... Their last post was five days ago. I can't help but worry. Don't ask who I'm talking about, I'm just venting a little... ⦔
i think bein home makes my mental health worse #vent
Gog thi§ i§ §o fu(c)king §tupid. Thi§ whole thing i§ a big fu(c)king (c)o§mi(c) p(R)ank & I fu(c)king HATE it. I'm logging off. #vent ™
4b0ut t0 rest when My ThinkP4n betr4ys Me. I D0 n0t kn0w why it D0es this. It M4kes Me feel p4in th4t c4n't be s0lveD by MeDicine #vent
⦓ I want the mania back it makes me stupid and I keep embarrassing myself but at least I'm stupid in an almost happy way... The mood swings have been angling too low for a while. What's the use of having mood swings if they won't go up? that's just... a pendulum i suppose. ⦔
jesus have i ever been g**d at anything?? everything i try and make seems s* fucking subpar
I need to stop being skeptical of everyone. Maybe then I'd have friends. #vent
maybe playing it like im owver the vwhole thing is the vway to do it. i just fucking suck at it, thats the thing, i care vway too much. im trying to accept that. #thoughts #pondering #wvent
📍Urm📍 Excu$e me📍 Ma'am? I would appreciate at the very lea$t a wining and dining, before you try to fuck me📍 Pla$tic button$? $how me the horn or bone made one$ and I'll $top feeling like my globe$ got kicked into my aching $tomach, thank you $o much📍 #vent #$uit$hopping
oh i love i+ when ano+her dep+ decides +hey don+ wanna wri+e a repor+ for +heir da+a and gives i+ +o us +o do despi+e +ha+ no+ being in our job desc. i jus+ love i+ when i+ isn+ even +yped on a spreadshee+. i+s jus+ my favori+e +hing #ven+ #sarcasm
(C)o(R)eev (c)ame by again today. I don't know why §he doe§n't ju§t §tay on he(R) own fu(c)king planet, o(R) §it a(R)ound wo(R)king on he(R) wei(R)d-a§§ wo(R)k§hop on the moon. §he'§ §u(c)h a fu(c)king weeb, & I (c)annot let he(R) find out about thi§ (c)onne(c)tion I found to (C)hitt(R). §he'll be unbea(R)able on he(R)e. I ju§t don't unde(R)§t& why §he (c)an't leave me alone--I'm not inte(R)e§ted. The Game i§ done, we (c)an all ju§t do ou(R) own thing§ now. And I wanna be left alone he(R)e. I do. #vent ™
whats with the evil stepmom trope when real moms can fuck you up just as much if not worse #vent #mommyissues
killing myself would throw off its plan's. defy fate or whatever. mess with his "deltarune" too. guess its an option.
i hate knowing im not even a person. created by a bunch of peoples options to be a "vessel" for some evil fucking demon eyeball and then i guess thrown down to earth like 20-something year's ago where i experienced abuse first at the hands of my sister then at the hands of the people i fell in with after running away from home when i was i didnt ask to be created i dont want to be this fucking thing thats only purpose has been to serve host to some shitty fucking eye was me being sent to earth part of it how much did wdg know would happen have i been fucking groomed for this broken so that ill make...Read more
nothing more than a copy. a reflection fuck my life
(˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵) —— I miss when my hOOkups actually were "nO strings attached". (｡•︿•̀｡) One night tOgether dOesn't mean I wanna pursue a quadrant... —— (˘ ³˘)
d/dx [ You give a troll an inch, and they'll take a mile. Helping you out one time in the past does N()T, by ∆NY means, entitle you to pushing all your tedious work onto MΣ. ! have plenty of work to do regardless, and there's only so much overtime a troll can take. ]
getting morning wood used to be fine but after being raped by someone i met on pesterchum it just feel's like my own body is violating me. i didnt ask for this boner. the fuck. but i dont even know why i feel that way. its far from the first time that kinda things happened to me and i didnt give so much of a shit back then maybe its cause i care about myself more now than when i was a kid idfk #cw-rape #cw-abuse #rape #rape-mention #cw-mental-health #cw-rape-mention #cw-sexual-abuse #vent
(˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵) —— Sigh... SOmetimes I wish it was easier tO break Off situatiOnships... ( ◠ ◠;) —— (˘ ³˘)
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..I hate this story. I hate it i hate it i hate! Why can't I write anything for it?! I.. i dont know why it isnt writing correctly.. i cant even start on it as it feels wrong. I wwnt to just write amd not think on what is going wrong and everything isnt even working- #vent
i think im too tired to care. fuck it. behind the tree it goes with everything else i dont think about. i guess thats one benefit to mental breakdown's when you cant sleep. they make you super tired
cruel joke of the universe that i cant even cut myself to assure myself im real cause i dont bleed ever since that fucking piece of shit demon eye-knight-whatever thing possessed me. lol. lmfao. fahahah. heheheh. copies are monochrome. gman made this account for me along with the apple pfp. apparently kris deltarune has association with apple's given a couple people have mistaken me for them based on pfp alone copies are monochrome. my skin literally turn's grey when im away from the bunker-mansion for too long copies are monochrome. my older sisters name was destiny which everyone would always sh...Read more
:33 < #vent :33 < it took ages to get anypawdy to recognise me as an actual purrson instead of just a dumb "kittycat shipper cave girl" which is how all of my furriends viewed me fur a while :33 < and id purrlay into it beclaws i didnt have many other furriends which tends to catpun when you are raised in a cave :33 < i even had a huge flushcrush on karkitty even though he was purrty much a jerk to me but i was just mewsed to it :(( :33 < its not that i dont like being silly and aloof i really do :33 < but efurryone is surpurrised when i also have f33lings :33 < luckily it isnt like that anymeowre
im dead. im dead and im in hell just like those nuns said i would be #vagueposting #vent