#cw-mental-health
> to th12 day 1m 2t1ll amazed 1ve gone th12 long w1thout a proper mo1ra1l #cw-mental-health <
> you ever feel l1ke 80% of the people you know are 2ecretly 1n on 2ometh1ng you aren't? #cw-mental-health <
.i'm sorry but .i can't help myself. .i have so many thoughts .in my head .and .i hate .all .of them. .i hate them. really, really bad. .i'm just crying because .i can't get .out .of my thinkpan. .i won't tell which .are because they .are that horrific, but .i'm trying to think better .of them. hard. .i'm so tired. .i want to talk .a lot, talk to someone. but .at the same time .i'm scared that .i will say something bad, that .i'll hurt them. .am .i that bad .as .a whole? .or my fate .is set .and .i have to suffer .it? .i .am so, so sorry... .i... .i want .a hug .or someone to cuddle me... .i .am so...Read more
[unit_CN003NF_message] (this i-is my d-dont have a-a panic a-attack song) (d-do doodododo) (d-dodoodooododooodoodoo) (do d-do) (...) (i d-dont think i-its working) [end_message]
[unit_CN003NF_message] [unit-offline] [tech_note: second panic attack this wipe, eugh, there's gotta be a better way to deal with this than wasting our beta blocker supply on it] [end_message]
[unit_CN003NF_message] (just g-gotta b) [stress_level:8/10] (b-breathe) (in a-and) (and o-out) [end_message]
do you eeveer jusst feeeel likee you wanna eexplodee at timeess? #cw-meental-heealth (???)
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w why is ths i dnt think this i rite is this a pnic attack? #cw-mental-health #cw-panic-attack
{{ Hey. Serious post, I'm really sorry, but I feel like I'm digging myself in a bigger hole when I'm not addressing the problem. My partner texted me about a week ago with an update, which I'm very grateful about, but it's still difficult to make myself enjoy things I want to enjoy, or to even hang out with people before getting overstimulated and have self harm ideations again. It's kind of put me in a situation where I'm talking to about anyone, even if I don't like the person, the attention is comforting. I'm too scared to reach out to people, knowing they're okay with my bullshit, but I d...Read more
do you ever - worry - that when - you understand someone's issues - very very - well that - it might be a sign - that both of you need help - and it's concerning - that you both are similar in - that way > #cw-mental-health #rambling
▲one of these lights im just gonna▼
▲who knows, maybe being depressed will make me more enjoyable to be around▼
MAKE IT STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP #cw-mental-health
h33h33. hoohoo? mmm no. nonono definitely not that one. fahaha.
heehe3. easy solution. i should. nnno. no no, who would raise their grub. no, bad idea. rgh. and would you CUT IT OUT WITH THE KNOCKING @kingofYellow
oh. i think i might b3 having a manic episode. fahaha. i feel like a god. this most definitely isnt good for me! heehee. heheehe3heeh33hehehehe fahahahahaha x) i do wish that ugly fucking door would get out of my head though
my mind is like a woven tapestry being tugged at the corners to reveal the gaps between and through them i see it and i know it can give me everything i could want and i know its also bullshit and a liar. one corner tugs and i feel giddy and elated, that i can once more indulge in the annoyance and teasing of a vile individual. another corner tugs and i feel sorrow, that i cannot speak my thoughts and feelings for some, that i cannot help people. another corner tugs and i feel a need to protect, to nurture, to hold while another corner tugs and incites a burning fucking violent rage and beneath it all th...Read more
c< ....tHis dOesNt cOuNt 2wards tHe cOuNt, by tHe by, because it wasNt subMitted tHrOugH tHe 4M, but #KarAMA #KaraMasAMA sOMeONe wHO waNts 2 stay aNON asKs: wHy dO yOu Hate yOurself? aNswer: ....because i waNNa be better because i see Myself 4 wHat i lacK, NOt wHat i aM i caN see tHat, tHe reasONable part Of My paN sees it but tHe eMOtiONal part.... sees it 2, sees tHe tiMes ive beeN useless, sees tHe tHOusaNds Of dead KaraMas tHat MarcH iN Our fOOtsteps, sees tHe struggle aNd just.... cries abOut it .... aNd wHeN tHOse twO clasH, we get tHat, My self-lOatHiNg.... i Hate Myse...Read more
mental .and health check. .i'm perfection. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
... .i think .i'll just go .and... rehabilitate... #cw-mental-health
who wouldve guessd havin ur emotions forced dwn causes u 2 feel evrythin all at once whn it stops 0/10 dnt recomend its rly overwelmin n overstimulatin #cw-mental-health
I wish I could get some concerning thoughts out without worrying my loved ones. IF I taalkk aabout them here, they might reaad it aand aact aaccordingly aand I caannot reaally blaame them... BUt if I just kkeep them in, I might... JUst aact upon them
.i'm sorry .if .i don't .understand jokes... .i was feeling tired .and... depressed?.. .i don't like this word, but .i feel this .is most ".accurate" to my current state. now .i'm .a bit lost... but .i think .i see the light... sigh... #cw-mental-health
> que2t1on1ng 1f 1 even de2erve what l1ttle connect1on2 1 have #cw-mental-health <
despite #sorrowsaturday... perhaps you should need to stay strong. keep going. .until you feel the pain. like .i do. .until .arms will bleed .endlessly. making body less harder. .as bones .in legs start to crush from pressure. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
.i .actually won't need to worry .at .all for my life .or .if .i'll be culled. because .i'm .immortal... how do .i die then? this .is .uhhh... sorry... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
.i love life ... no .i'm not. .i'm currently crying because .of you... .i'm sorry... #cw-mental-health
then the question .is, who .isn't crazy? who .isn't weird? .us? humans? .omnipotent beasts? who? no .one! .everyone .is .unique .in their .own style! calling someone crazy should be .a slur. to which .i'm sorry to those who .i called them. .it was rude from my side. .i deeply .apologise. #cw-mental-health
for sure, .i'm mentally disabled .one. .one with brain .issues. .i still scratch myself from my .anxiety! cool right? right? no! .it's very not... sorry... .i should stay .at the line. .as .always. be polite .as .always. maybe .i'll my job back .at least, .i guess. .or maybe something .else. #cw-mental-health #cw-self-harm
... maybe .i .am crazy? .or .i .am weird? who knows? #cw-mental-health
.i lied. let's do mental check. mental state. .i'm fine. .i'm questioning myself .about my sanity. .and .i'm fine. thank you, now go .and... .eat dirt. that's right, .i'm meanie. .and .i don't swear. but .i can! .uhhh... #cw-mental-health
mental state. ... .i'll stop this crap. .it feels pointless. sorry. #cw-mental-health
health state... .or check? .uhhh... nominal. no scratches since yesterday. .except .eyes got burned .a little, but .i see very good. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
health check .and mental check .i'll do tomorrow .early night. #cw-mental-health
What should I even do with my life anymore. I'm hopeless. Traumatized and hopeless with nothing to help me #cw-mental-health
I'm a fucking mess. Broken. Unable to be repaired. Anything anyone does to help fails. It's like i'm meant to be like this. It's like fate sealed this in for me once I discovered those repressed childhood memories. The fact I can't get help from the two people closest to me... It says a lot about how damaged I am. How unfixable I am. I'm fucking doomed... #cw-mental-health
i cnt i jst cant kepp doin ths i i hate fellin so scared n knowin i cnt do anythn about it n just i idk wht 2 do i feel leik a horrible prson but im uot of ideas n just laika rember the notes? can u get those? im sry #cw-self-harm #cw-suicide #substance #cw-stalking #vent #cw-mental-health
mental check. ... what can .i say .uhhh... first .of .all .i'm not .insane .anymore. .i'm not crazy, despite what people like to say .into my face. mood? very far from worse. .and .it could be better. #cw-mental-health
health check. sadly, .i scratched my .arms previous night .after my .anxiety .and frustration kicked .in. .i still remember this moment. .i managed to quickly stop .it, disinfect .it .and put bandages .over. .it's still happens despite the help .i got. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
▲im not bipolar im the best gog damned bitch on this fucking website go fuck yourself▼
no fucking respect. .it's hard to be polite. hard to keep safe distance. .it's hard. .i didn't do .anything .at .all. no harm to .a single being. .and here .i .am, getting .almost threatened for being crazy! what .a great treatment. when someone .else .is getting saved, people cherish them. when .i'm being saved .and .even getting sent back to .alternia, .all safe .and sound, .i get "dude .are you crazy?" fuck .off. .i need to cry now. thank you. #cw-mental-health
maybe .i should .ask for .a new badge: "mnetally-.ill troll" .oh that would be cool, right? right? no. #cw-mental-health
mental check. .i'm still .insane. #cw-mental-health
.i culled my .own self. you may want too. #cw-mental-health #gore
▲so do i burn down my own hive or get really into deadlock lore, hmm, decisions decisions▼