#cw-mental-health
dont know whether to laugh or cry rn. think im just gonna block and ignore it so i never have to see it again. shouldve done that earlier.
@karmaDagger whats the matter dawg. not gonna take my advice? you dont want to become me, right? kill yourself and save us both the trouble then. ah, fuck, who am i kidding. youll probably fail like you did with the attempts when you wanted to defy the angel eye. youre pathetic.
think im just gonna go back to sleep. try and sleep all day before i have a self-destructive episode and do a bunch of awful shit to cut off everyone who cares about me.
this shit along with the failed suicide attempt (why i was gone for a whole week) paired with the gradual increase of depressive episodes and a feeling of deep loneliness even when talking to and hanging out with people i give a fuck about is really doing number's on me. but i guess thats the point. break the vessel until its suitable enough, right? ...wonder if that implies the demon eye thing is the cause of my mental health issue's recently. it isnt, ive always been this way. but i guess itd be nice to have something to blame.
am i even real at least when i was slutting out constantly i felt real. an object is real i dont think i know how to be a person. i dont think thatll ever change
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▲sometimes i feel depressed, but then i remember thats for bottoms, I can just export the depression to them▼ ▲thats why i always keep a couple in the basement▼
> whatever force2 are 2t1ll lett1ng me l1ve another day 1m gonna make them regret every cho1ce they made #cw-mental-health (12h?) <
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so this is ab0ut The Incident recently. longtime fans will kn0w i was diagnosed with bip0lar disorder when i was y0ung. i only went tw0 that docterr0r a few times, since i was busy coding the end 0f the world and sacrificing my life f0r my friends multiple times and shit, so ive been missing critical inf0rmation f0r a while now. im a l0t happier n0wanights, but the m0od swings have continued tw0 be little bitches nonetheless. turns 0ut tho, my assumpti0n that those were fr0m the bd was wrong. th0se are a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ISSUE and have n0thing two d0 with it! you kn0w what bd does? well the depres...Read more
▲my solution to getting fat is probably just smoking more▼ ▼that way i die sooner and dont need to worry bout it▲
starting to think the horrors are just. how it is. may8e there’s no point fighting against them
unknow me unmeet me unnotice me unlike me untalk to me unlook in my direction unknow me
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ok dream r02e you were riight. there2 an eye iin here, 0n the do0r. that fucking liight wiill not leave me al0ne.
ff. where2 ff. iim 2orry, ii kn0w ii diidnt do en0ugh. ii dont care iif thii2 ii2 real 0r not, plea2e ju2t let me 2tay here. ii d0nt want two wake up.
0k. in my cl0set. its not as bright anym0re. so it wakes up, and either it needs tw0 physically attack me and i probably die, 0r this dreambubble ceases two exist. when did ii la2t 2leep? ii dont even remember. what am ii going tw0 wake up two
what happens when it wakes up.
okay. l0gically speaking, if this is a horr0rterror, and its sleeping, and audibly stirring and i can hear it. then i must be in a dreambubble.
listen two me 0kay, hear.me out. its n0t snarling or hungry 0r whatever. its snoring. and its getting m0re shaky and varied. i think its waking up.
but wtf would a h0rrorterr0r want with me. maybe its a general do0m player thing but i havent heard many other examples 0f this.
oh my g0d thats why yall cant h3ar it. its a fucking horr0rterror, th0sw things get in your head and whisper tw0 you, right? can any r0ses confirm thx i hate you <3<
.i .am having .awful, .awful thoughts. .i think, .i .am losing grip .on reality. sorry, but .i'm .out .of supplies .and .i'm bad .at this. .i still don't .understand .on how to make new .items, .at least basics. .i haven't slept that long .amount before, .i guess. but .i don't see .any places .other see. .uhhh... sorry to .everyone. .i'm .useless... seems .i met my .own .ending here. .i... .i don't .even know what to do now. .i had .at least my job .and some tries .in new hobbies. but now .i don't have .anything. shooting .is fun, but my .arm feel sore .on .every shot. people think shooting for prolong t...Read more
Ah. It looks like I forgot to eat again. #cw-eating-disorder #cw-mental-health
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> h12tor1an2 w1ll be debat1ng for 2weep2 how th12 wa2te of a v1olet made 1t th12 far #cw-mental-health <
> they 2hould 1nvent a me that 12nt utterly pathet1c #cw-mental-health <
> why even bother 1f 1m ju2t 1nev1tably gonna end back up at 2quare negat1ve one #cw-mental-health <
▼just realized I'm gonna live past 15...▲ ▼what do i even do with all that time?▲
i hate knowing im not even a person. created by a bunch of peoples options to be a "vessel" for some evil fucking demon eyeball and then i guess thrown down to earth like 20-something year's ago where i experienced abuse first at the hands of my sister then at the hands of the people i fell in with after running away from home when i was i didnt ask to be created i dont want to be this fucking thing thats only purpose has been to serve host to some shitty fucking eye was me being sent to earth part of it how much did wdg know would happen have i been fucking groomed for this broken so that ill make...Read more
getting morning wood used to be fine but after being raped by someone i met on pesterchum it just feel's like my own body is violating me. i didnt ask for this boner. the fuck. but i dont even know why i feel that way. its far from the first time that kinda things happened to me and i didnt give so much of a shit back then maybe its cause i care about myself more now than when i was a kid idfk #cw-rape #cw-abuse #rape #rape-mention #cw-mental-health #cw-rape-mention #cw-sexual-abuse #vent
> at th12 po1nt 1 th1nk be1ng beforan culled would be the only th1ng to f1x me #cw-mental-health #cw-1m-probably-m1221ng-2ome-other-cw <
> what2 even the po1nt #cw-mental-health <
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> they're gonna have to g1ve a pr1ze and a 2eat on 2ome comm1ttee to whoever the fuck can f1x me #cw-mental-health <
> 1 th1nk 1m depre22ed #cw-mental-health <
>>| you know what. fine! screw this. .i scratched my .arms .all week while .i've been .absent from chittr. not .even beverage helped me. .and .i'm still going through .it. for now .i'm somewhat "stable". .all because .of this stupid game .and this stupid fate. .one night .i was living .a peaceful night .on .alternia, but .another .i'm who knows there .on some stupid planet with .unimaginable crap .and stuff. @hushedcardiomyopathy shut .up for .once. .i .am not pathetic. you're the .one who .is pathetic. you still can't get simple facts .into your .own mind, going .all cute .and still kneeling to people...Read more
i think im too tired to care. fuck it. behind the tree it goes with everything else i dont think about. i guess thats one benefit to mental breakdown's when you cant sleep. they make you super tired
cruel joke of the universe that i cant even cut myself to assure myself im real cause i dont bleed ever since that fucking piece of shit demon eye-knight-whatever thing possessed me. lol. lmfao. fahahah. heheheh. copies are monochrome. gman made this account for me along with the apple pfp. apparently kris deltarune has association with apple's given a couple people have mistaken me for them based on pfp alone copies are monochrome. my skin literally turn's grey when im away from the bunker-mansion for too long copies are monochrome. my older sisters name was destiny which everyone would always sh...Read more
[I REMEMBER WHEN I WA$ YOUNGER I U$ED TO GO INTO THE $HOWER WITH THE OPEN WOUND$ IN MY BA#K AND ID $ET THE TEMPERATURE TO THE HOTTE$T IT #OULD GET AND $IT ↓ UNDER THE WATER ]
So I ask am I just dreaming? I love you so much that it's dripping. Dripping from my arms and such. I'm sorry I know i'm too much. To love to trust i'm nothing but. https://youtu.be/MzYO6_ld3LA?si=42-19Qkkesk0qYOd #lyricposting #lyrics #HowItFeelsWhenICutMyself #ThePeopleICareAbout... #TheyHateIDoThis... #IFeelIAmTooMuchWhenIDoThis... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| well. .i may just write farewell letter .or something. .or how like how .it goes? crap... sorry. .i may just shut .up sorry .uhhh... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i wonder .if .i .eligible for disability pride badge? like with mental .issue stuff .and weak .arms, .i guess? #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
𓆝but ive got an angry heart, filled with cancers and poppy tarts, if this is how you folks make art, its fucking depressing. https://open.spotify.com/track/4epszmo6xw01vtggoyb2kr?si=eitfewj2qxofwotz_zj9mq&utm_source=copy-link #lyricposting #cw-mental-health ?♆𖦹°‧
This is not me shaming anyone, by the way. Eating well is a process that takes time and energy. In the past I have had episodes in which I have been unable to eat well in the least for various reasons. Small steps are still steps. If all you have the energy to consume is some noodleslop then eat the noodleslop. Things can improve. I believe in you. #eating-disorder just in case but this more about #cw-mental-health in a way.
>>| redacted. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
iillalwsyss neverbbe a person iillalways bejust a bad ddog whohurtd people ttheonky way tostop it is ifi die ismrkrry imsorry
> Actually, while I still have the fucking site open! May as well copy/paste what I sent to them in Discord here too since I know they barely ever fucking check that app. > This is just for when they wake up. If you're not Karma, ignore this I guess. > Or don't if you want to be annoyed at them! I know I AM!!! > @karmadagger Next time you're going to some fucking party where you plan to pass out in the middle of a forest could you fucking tell me??? You had me fucking worried sick you asshole. You're lucky I was smart enough to check fucking Chittr to try and stalk your profile for a clue to where you ...Read more
i hope trhy dont pln on sendin me 2 a psycheward agin i think thryr lyin about needin my permision bt i dnt think i shold run aray again #substance
alright gamer's heres the next MILESTONE WOOO HYPESQUAD ill be K-K-K-KULLINNNNGGGG MYSELF WHEN WE REACH FIFTY!! THOUSAND!!! KULLLLL!!!! MAKE sure to hit that SUSCRIBE BUTTON'S, LEAVE A HATE, and turn on ALL NOTIFICATION'S so youre sure not to miss it this has been ya dawg THE KD, peace #cw-mental-health #cw-suicide #this-is-mostly-a-joke