#cw-mental-health
>>| .alright .uhhh. need to get myself .up. .i may go, take some shots .and drinks. some beverage. clean my head .and have some fun .in the .event. so for now. .i hope. really hope. no more friends .of mine, getting .into bad situation. not to mention, the worst .imaginable. .i don't want to go .over this .again. .i can't handle .all .anxiety .and stress .and .other nasty .emotions. .i mean .it. #substance .implied #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .alright. .uhhh sorry. .i'm good now. .i'm thankful to zemich for the help. sorry .if .i kept some people worry. .it's just.. .i'm just good now that .is .all. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health @normaleveryday
>>| .i'll be good. sorry. help .on way #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry .i may passt .out no.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry... .i.. .i'm good, just time... just pain to .ease my feelings... sorry... but she .is fine? .i saw her .earlier... .i .am sorry.. https://hive.beeb.trl/posts/img_083.png #gore #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| . .. sorrry. .i.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry.. give me some time please.. .i'm sory this .isjust too much.. no.. .i.... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i... .i'm sorry. .i... this .is just... fucked .up. .i so. .i .am so sorry.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
EScaapism aat its finest. BEcaause sleep does not require effort. EXcept for when it does. THough it does instill paaraalysing feaar, but whaat does not? I aam so good aat being coherent #cw-mentaal-heaalth
Typically either the blood or the sting will make me feel less empty and yet here we are. I suppose I feel disgusting, and like a waste, though even those thoughts are clouded in the blur of numbness that's overcome me as of late.
>>| like, by pushing .i mean .asking how they .are doing, how .are they feeling, what .is their night was. .i'm .in fear that .at .one point they will get mad .on me for that. for such .obnoxious questions. .and from that .i start to .overthink, .i guess.. what .if they .actually waiting for my question. .and then .it goes .on .and .on. .and .i'm like. maybe .i should check .on them. but .i know they're doing .alright. but what .if not? .uhhh. sorry. .i just don't .understand the boundaries people might have. .and .it gets me worry. like. .it's fine to go .and .ask .a friend .if they .are doing .alr...Read more
"AAnxiety is not reaal, it caannot hurt you," I saay aas it proceeds to kkickk the shit out of me #cw-mentaal-heaalth
I caan be trusted not to get aan aanxiety aattaackk thaat laasts haalf of the night out of nowhere #cw-mentaal-heaalth
It has been... A r<>ugh c<>uple <>f nights. I need... I am n<>t even sure what. I d<> n<>t even have the energy t<> carry <>n with the insufferable r<>leplay pers<>na. I d<> n<>t even feel like a tr<>ll, much less a pers<>n. I am s<> tired #cw-mental-health #cw-self-harm
(( Doing this OOC shit, just in case people get worried about Possy go haywire. And also OOC-IC line smearing (I supar-rarely do OOC, cause breaks RP) But yeahh he is dumb in head, but it's just characters and Posnah needs some suffering(me: holding gun to his head). No regrets btw. It's about #cw-self-harm and #cw-mental-health. Has been there forevar ))
>>| redacted. .i'm sorry, .i was just .overthinking. .it's gone, the stupid words .are gone. don't worry. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health #cw-suicide #suicide
>>| just. slowly bleeding .out. sorry.. keep going. .i'm sorry, .i'm just feeling tired. .uhhh. taking .a nap here, sounds .if rain .is nice. sorry.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health #gore
>>| .uhhh. sorry. .i need some time. .i may chitt later .if my thoughts will settle down. .i'm just happy .at least that my shift .ended. .and .uhhh. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| look. for the last few hours, .i had .a lot .of stuff that .i tried to .ignore. .i will not go .into details, but .i here .is .a hint. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health .i'm doing this chitt to say .i'm going to take .a rest, for reasons. second .of .all, @packagehandler. curree please. get yourself together. .and hope that gloom .is .all safe .and .intact. .i hope! .it's hard .and .i know this feeling. but don't go the route .i did. she did. .or .if .after my sleep you will still be .in this state, .i will find you .and shoosh you. cookie with .a tea for you.
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>>| finished treating my .arms with bandages. got .into big mess. .i'm good. .uhhh. #gore #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry, but .i'm passing .out for now.. nice to know curree .is goood.... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| not .again... sorry... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i'm sorry. .uhhh. .i need to take timeout. .i'll be good. .i'm so sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| "are you .a motherfucking masochist .or some shit???" no. my self harm posts mostly .is .about my mentality .issues. some people may know .it for months with my .existence .on feed. .i hurt myself .if .i get too .anxious .or too stressed, like bad .emotional meltdown. .it's .a mechanism that .i had for sweeps. .origin? .i won't reveal. that's the secret .i will take to the grave, .i guess. by the by, that .is .a good chitt to cover .up what .i have bad for you, .if you follow me .or want to be my friend .or .even .acquaintance. don't talk to me then. https://hive.beeb.trl/qna/ #gore #violence ...Read more
Logically I'm very aware that my recent emotional turmoil truly is just chemical imbalances and rather stereotypical responses to sudden upheaval, however, knowing these stone cold facts does not make dealing with the overwhelm of the emotions any easier. Often I feel as though I am barely keeping myself afloat, my head dipping under the surface of the black water that is all encompassing anguish. I know the way I speak and come across also creates a disconnect from peers and makes it seem like I'm not experiencing these feelings as heavily and wholly as others, because I'm too 'clinical' with how I speak...Read more
>>| .i may need to make .a chitt clarification .about my .issues, .if there's going to be .anyone, so pity to become my moirail. but not this night. later perhaps. #gore #violence #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .alright then. back to bandaging. sorry. .i keep .eyes .on feed. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i can't take care .of myself without missing .a single .important moment. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health .if kanaka .is really dead then .i... .i don't know... .it's .a bit sad, because he was silly person. who .i make fun .of .in the future?
>>| .i'm sorry. .uhhh. .i think chittr time .is .over for me for now. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
(( Time to try to explain Profor's deal.. Let's start as best as i can. Profor Tempus is the grandson of the Condescension and lives at a point of time where the original cast for the Alpha Trolls didn't play the game. This is relevant due to the fact that Feferi died in this timeline without overtaking the position of Empress. His position within his position as he understands it, is to be a replacement for someone who should have been Empress, and is a replacement for her place within the scheme of Sburbs or Sgrubs. Struggling with trying to change anything as he feels as if a noose is tigh...Read more