getting morning wood used to be fine but after being raped by someone i met on pesterchum it just feel's like my own body is violating me. i didnt ask for this boner. the fuck. but i dont even know why i feel that way. its far from the first time that kinda things happened to me and i didnt give so much of a shit back then maybe its cause i care about myself more now than when i was a kid idfk #cw-rape #cw-abuse #rape #rape-mention #cw-mental-health #cw-rape-mention #cw-sexual-abuse #vent
sometimes shit hurts the most when you start the process of healing from it or sometimes itll just creep up on you once youre in a space where your life is calmer and your brain thinks its safe to let loose what its been keeping in the trunk of “do not think about” its really fucking tough regardless and i hope you can find some comfort to wade through it with if you havent already if you want advice, showering to music then getting in some comfortable clothes might get your mind off it or at least redirect your thoughts somewhere more pleasant
thanks dolli. youre a real mf