#cw-mentalhealth
what am i doing man. the new universe thing was meant to be a fresh start but all i got was being forgotten by the others.. im with a guy i hardly feel anything for. i didnt even get to end up with the guy i wanted.. god tier makes life harder for some reason. i cant even die with out being a horrible person! #vent #yearning #cw-mentalhealth
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((To be warned. This page contains mentions of taxidermy of insects, insecurity, mental health struggles, violence and general unhealthy coping mechanisms. I finally got around to finishing his intro. Basic alterian troll warnings I suppose )) You are Cicuta Ardens, An violetblood whose beliefs are as confusing as they are hypocritical. You don't actually believe that they are. However, some ohabe told you as such. You have several rules for social interactions and often react to purposefully breaking of the rules with punishment. You are lenient to those who didn't mean to or don't understand yo...Read more
tweaking really bad / at my new job / ugh / please / i need this job #cw-mentalhealth
cruel joke of the universe that i cant even cut myself to assure myself im real cause i dont bleed ever since that fucking piece of shit demon eye-knight-whatever thing possessed me. lol. lmfao. fahahah. heheheh. copies are monochrome. gman made this account for me along with the apple pfp. apparently kris deltarune has association with apple's given a couple people have mistaken me for them based on pfp alone copies are monochrome. my skin literally turn's grey when im away from the bunker-mansion for too long copies are monochrome. my older sisters name was destiny which everyone would always sh...Read more
Just love when you get all sleepy and cozy and start to sleep only to have your brain say HAH! That's enough rest for you, chump. Time for some insomnia and restlessness for you! #cw-mentalhealth
ཐི༏ཋྀ Hey Anx1ety can y0u l1ke n0t d0 that? - § 𝒥𝒶𝒹ℯ 𝒜𝓁𝒶𝓍ℯ𝓃𝓈𝒾𝓈 §
im gonna go to sleep early tonight. that mental episode and following mutual love confession (even though we already knew i guess it was just. actually saying it) drained my emotional battery but first i need some fucking food (puked everything up from thinking about stuff that was part of the episode. dont ask, youre never getting answer's) #vent? #cw-mentalhealth #cw-relationships? #howdoifuckingtagthisdude
...jesus everythings fucking going down huh. just told someone i love in dms about the worst shit ever in my life that ive never even told the closest people to me while having a mental breakdown, pryms back, and laulums become a cryptid. i think im gonna unpack the other two things later im still coming down from my mental episode. #dashwatching #vent?iguess? #imeanimchillnowbut #cw-mentalhealth?
The others don't really like to be by themselves with me. I feel a sense of pity they have now. I do regret making a displeased face when Dave said that I'm awful at hugs. I left the room swiftly and now, I don't think they appreciated that. They don't often touch me now as one of their friends.
Sometimes I let go of myself in the moment of group conversation. What if I was John? the way he smiles and laughs from his chest looks nice to experience, a genuine joy. What if I was Jade? Proud to show her grin? Unafraid of herself. I could be Dave, carrying a sense of noble hope and faith towards others. Sometimes, I get happy when I'm not in my life. Even for a few minutes. Sometimes, I wish I could leave myself at the table when it's time to leave the room.
rare aesthetic: suddenly losing your ability to create art after dedicating years of your life to it
its okay to cry vwhen it hurts, but man do I feel stupid vwhen i do. emotions much to many and much to big vwery fast suddenly. sitting here and then bam boom powv. Im emotional about something.
a lot of my therapy is surrounding post-partum, depression, c-ptsd and more recently grief because apparently vwhen ya grub cocoons for the month your pan registers it as losing someone.
QUESTION #38 FROM @RAMBUNCTIOUSRANCOUR THEY ASK. "~~~WHAT'S THE SCARIEST MQMENT QF YQUR LIFE?~~~" IF I ASNWERED THIS QUESTION I'D GO INTO A MENTAL EPISODE, JUST KNOW IT WAS /BAD/ HTTPS://FORMS.GLE/A3CXW8HRAX2XETJHA #AAMAE #CW-MENTALHEALTH
> Be me. > Start meds for the big sad because doctor said it's time. > Two (2) different kinds of pills. > Mood starts picking up. More active. Life "good". > Decide to lay off one pill because feeling good. > Choose the pill that helps sleep, not mood. > Feel shitty for a month. > Why feel shitty? > Realization. #substance #cw-mentalhealth
.a lot of you idiots on this app are so fucking fakE .only pretending to give a shiT .calling yourself a pal and then acting like you never knew a bitch existeD .then you act like youre SOOOO much better than other losers when a bitch skips the theatrics and acts reaL .some of you dont like that i don't let other bitches down by pretending to care and then ditchinG ?that make you question your high hoofbeasT .i can be mean and crass and obtuse sometimes but at least I dont pretend to be anyones frienD ((#drama #cw-mentalhealth maybe? Maybe??? Also not really ooc to be safe
..I THINK I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE, WHERES THATS REALLY POSITIVE INDIGOBLOOD? IM SURE HE'D BE WILLING TO LISTEN. #VAGUEPOSTING. #CW-MENTALHEALTH.
Woke up to a panic attack. I suppose that getting hyucked by the horrorterrors or taking my prescription couldn't keep that at bay. I was in such a good streak too. Dare I try to go back to sleep? Should I just wait for later and chug at least one Monster Energy? Edit: Forgot my tags. #nsfw #substances #cw-mentalhealth