#mentalhealth
my novelty has worn off. i am now nothing. i no longer matter. #mentalhealth
⪩ When y⌖u re𓉸l⸸ze th𓉸t y⌖u've been d⸸ss⌖c⸸𓉸t⸸ng f⌖r h⌖urs, n⌖t just z⌖n⸸ng ⌖ut f⌖r 𓉸 m⸸nute. #Ment𓉸lHe𓉸lth ⪨
I WANT TO BITE SOMETHING
ཐི༏ཋྀ Can't br1ng myself t0 eat... - § 𝒥𝒶𝒹ℯ 𝒜𝓁𝒶𝓍ℯ𝓃𝓈𝒾𝓈 §
၄⋆၃ the pendulum is xonstantly swinging between "im evil and awful and deserve nothing" and "im a pretty alright guy and my life is axtually going really well" the whiplash is killing me
Oh hello intrusive thoughts.
၄⋆၃ life goes up and then it goes really really really down always going 1 step forward and then 2 steps baxk i think im just broken BUT SHOUT POLE THERE IS NO TIME TO WORRY ABOUT THAT SHOUT POLE FLOOR TIME AGAIN rolling around on the floor
{{ This is super out of character for me to talk on this account, but I'd like to update people who may have talked with me or other accounts I run. It's a serious topic about my mental health and why I haven't been as active on some of my accounts. ( #cw-selfharm #cw-selfharmideation #suicidepreventionmonth 💜🩵 #mentalhealth ) For a while, I've struggled to make myself happy without the need of relying on others, I thought I was getting better, but then my relationship has started having conflict and we haven't been talking too much recently. It's put me in a horrible position, making me over think...Read more
C=~ As a lichen widhereg by grougght, in dhe geep isolation a beingg will fing itself fallingg gormant. Sleepingg much, dhe lifeform forggets to feel, to eat, to wake, to exist beyong dhe minimum. It hibernates, dhe ming mummifieg gry by neegs longg unsatisfieg. C=~ C=~ Finally, dhe rain comes. A smile, a touch, a worg. Dhe lichen springgs fordh from gormancy widh vivig celebratory color. However, it is smaller now. Dhe lichen goes not realize how much gamagge has been gone, ang how much of itself was gestroyeg guringg its slumber. C=~ C=~ Only after dhe rains come ang ggo goes it realize how far fr...Read more
C=~ I am experiencingg some complicateg emotions. I have beggun makingg friengs here. I have not mage friengs ang a longg time. Dhere is a ggrief dhat ggrows insige me where my loggical ming dhinks joy shoulg be dhat mourns my longg gance widh absence, which I dhougght I hag mage peace widh. Dhere is a fear dhat calls to question me; It asks, "Ang what will you go if dhe absence returns aggain? Is it not safer to remain in dhe absence where dhe loss of presence you never hag cannot hurt you?" C=~ C=~ When it asks, I answer, "I'm not sure." C=~
tfw you see alternate versions of your dead brother everywhere and know he exists in another timeline that is seriously messed up and evil and he ruins everything there and you wont ever get to see the real him again: mondays am i right #vent #mentalhealth
I might vomit.. - why did i ask - its - nothing - nothing at all - its fine - to ask - ... - i can do this - it is - okay - to ask - for - a badge - It isnt - as if - theyll - ask me to prove it - but what if - im faking it - what if - im just - overreacting-- >
ONLY FOUR FUCKING HOURS OF SLEEP, CULL ME AND THROW MY CORPSE OFF A FUCKING BEAST INTO A FLOODPLAIN.
[There was a photo attached. There was two pages that were lit by a dim lamp. The first page was labeled number 437 with a question mark on it. The writing seemed frenzied and was difficult to make out the words as they jumped on the page ] 'I felt blood from above me. That made no sense and when I checked again. There had been none to begin with. One of my traps went off by accident and I had to bandage the wound. It almost made feel alive. I understand that I have been told it is fine to show that I enjoy pain. It is embarrassing to admit the whys. Everything is moving slowly as it does. I fee...Read more
၄⋆၃ you know i dont drink xause i hate the after effexts but like dot dot dot i xould i totally xould maybe i should shout pole itd be FUNNY ITD BE SOOOOOO FUNNY usually after drinking i somehow wind up fully xlothed in the ablution trap sobbing but its FUNNY #substanxes
၄⋆၃ matesprit wantsss meeee soooooooooo baddddddd she finally fuxking notixed ive been THROWING MYSELF at her sinxe LAST LIGHT UGHHH AND I DONT THINK SHE NOTIXED THAT I WAS EVEN I THINK SHE JUST UGHHH NO ITS FINE DOT DOT DOT pissed the fuxk off #suggestive
၄⋆၃ if i wasnt desirable and xute i would have killed myself SWEEPS AGO what am i if im not agreeable and pretty question mark #xutiepatootie
၄⋆၃ felttt xuteee :)))))) xutest xennox i know #xennoxsphotoalbum
၄⋆၃ ok someone mention like mania earlier AND IM NOTTT MANIX just bexause i have energy for ONXE and DONT NEED TO SLEEP does NOT MEAN IM MANIX SHOUT POLE you just hate to see me WINNING and realizing I DONT MATTER MY AXTIONS DO NOT MATTER I XAN DO ANYTHING BEXAUSE NO ONE WILL REMEMBER IN 200 SWEEPS IM GOING TO TAKE THESE EDIBLE TRIP AND HAVE A GREATTT TIME AND DO WHATEVER WHENEVER I WANT
၄⋆၃ GUYS SHOUT POLE I REXONNEXTED WITH MY BUDDY @bananasXultist REMEMBER THAT LIKE FIRST PIXTURE I EVER SENT WITH THE SMOKE QUESTION MARK THAT WAS THEMMMM WITH MEEEE we used to be buddies a little after the alaera issues or whatever but WOWWW NEW OLD FRIENDSSSSSS at this rate i should rexonnext with some of alaeras old buddiesssssss shout pole or do you think theyd try to xull me bexause i killed herrrr hmmmmmmmmmm question mark n e waysssss yayayayayayy
၄⋆၃ sudden urge to xut off every person in my life and just RUNNNN i have so muxh energy suddenly doesnt matter that my bones feel like they xould snap at any moment shout pole bexause it wont matter in a few sweeps anywayyyyyyyy ill be better soon point of exxlamation i wont thouughhh id miss my matesprit :))))
၄⋆၃ fell down the damn stairs again :( someday i am going to set this wholeeee plaxe ablaze FOR THE BIT no more evil awful stairs that hate meeee :)))))))))))) but like then id be hiveless and thatttt would suxkkkkkkk :// i dunno shout pole i dont have anyone i really know so i xouldnt xrash anywhere anyways dot dot dot guess the hive survives another night darn
၄⋆၃ the urges to redye my hair in the middle of the light and repierxe my ears in my ablutionbloxk with a safety pin while blasting musix i am so fine right now i dont even know what i was talking about earlier shout polee im fine shout pole in faxt i feel great shout pole :DDD #XW-self-harm question mark lol how do i tag thissss question mark
((To be warned. This page contains mentions of taxidermy of insects, insecurity, mental health struggles, violence and general unhealthy coping mechanisms. I finally got around to finishing his intro. Basic alterian troll warnings I suppose )) You are Cicuta Ardens, An violetblood whose beliefs are as confusing as they are hypocritical. You don't actually believe that they are. However, some ohabe told you as such. You have several rules for social interactions and often react to purposefully breaking of the rules with punishment. You are lenient to those who didn't mean to or don't understand yo...Read more
shwre didnt help actully had a panic attack lol #vent #mentalhealth
၄⋆၃ it is xruxial that you do not listen to the intrusive thoughts in your pan telling you to do awful things to the people you xare about dot dot dot do i need a nap in the sopor or am i just a broken troll question mark
ཐི༏ཋྀ Please d0n't l00k f0r me. - § 𝒥𝒶𝒹ℯ 𝒜𝓁𝒶𝓍ℯ𝓃𝓈𝒾𝓈 §
ཐི༏ཋྀ Well th1s turn 0f events 1sn't g00d f0r my mental health. - § 𝒥𝒶𝒹ℯ 𝒜𝓁𝒶𝓍ℯ𝓃𝓈𝒾𝓈 §
INSPIRATIONAL QuOTE OF THE DAY. NEVER KILL YOuRSELF. KILL ANOTHER IN YOuR PLACE. THAT WAY. IF YOu HAVE SECOND THOuGHTS. OR CHANGE YOuR MIND AT THE LAST SECOND. YOu WILL BE REMEMBERED AS SPARING A TOTAL STRANGER. INSTEAD OF HuRTING THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THE WORLD TO YOu. YOuR OWN FINE ASS GODDAMN SELF. AND YOu CAN HOLD THAT OVER THEM FOREVER. #CW #TW #BOTH #SuICIDE #SELFHARM #MENTALHEALTH #PHYSICALHEALTH #SPIRITuALWELLNESS #CLEANSINGTHOuGHTS #LIKE #FIRE #DEATH #HOMICIDE #HOMICIDAL #INTENT #HOMICIDAL #ACTS
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- ..屮ⴵ-∊n dƗd Σ-∊lf-d-∊Σ♱ru☪︎♱ƗΩn Σ♱Ωp b-∊Ɨng ΣΩm-∊♱ⴵƗng yΩu dƗd.. Ⱥnd b-∊☪︎Ωm-∊ ΣΩm-∊Ωn-∊ yΩu Ⱥr-∊? nΩ♱ juΣ♱ ♱ⴵ-∊ ☪︎u♱♱Ɨng, p-∊Ωpl-∊ Ωnly r-∊☪︎ΩgnƗz-∊ pȺƗn 屮ⴵ-∊n Ɨ♱ bl-∊-∊dΣ lΩudly, ♱ⴵ-∊y dΩn'♱ nΩ♱Ɨ☪︎-∊ ♱ⴵ-∊ quƗ-∊♱-∊r 屮ȺyΣ yΩu Σ♱Ⱥr♱ dƗΣȺpp-∊ȺrƗng. Σ|⟨Ɨpp-∊d m-∊ȺlΣ ♱ⴵȺ♱ ♱urn ⴵung-∊r Ɨn♱Ω ΣΩm-∊♱ⴵƗng fȺmƗlƗȺr, Σl-∊-∊pl-∊ΣΣ nƗgⴵ♱Σ Σp-∊n♱ rΩ♱♱Ɨng Ɨn blu-∊ lƗgⴵ♱ b-∊☪︎ȺuΣ-∊ r-∊Σ♱Ɨng m-∊ȺnΣ b-∊Ɨng ȺlΩn-∊ 屮Ɨ♱ⴵ yΩurΣ-∊lf. ⴵȺƗr grΩ屮Ɨng lΩng-∊r b-∊☪︎ȺuΣ-∊ yΩu Σ♱Ωpp-∊d ☪︎ȺrƗng 屮ⴵȺ♱ r-∊fl-∊☪︎♱ƗΩn yΩu drȺgg-∊d ȺrΩund, -∊y-∊Σ dullƗng ΣlΩ屮ly, nΩ♱ ΣȺd. juΣ♱ -∊xⴵȺuΣ♱-∊d frΩm ☪︎ȺrryƗng ...Read more
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- ⴵ♱♱pΣ://☪︎dn.Ɨmg☪︎ⴵ-∊Σ♱.☪︎Ωm/fƗl-∊Σ/-∊23-∊9Ⱥdf91-∊d.png Ɨ'm jΩ|⟨Ɨng Ωf ☪︎ΩurΣ-∊ nƗgⴵ♱mȺr-∊Σ ȺƗn♱ ΣⴵƗ♱ ȺnymΩr-∊, ♱Ω♱Ⱥlly. #m-∊n♱Ⱥlⴵ-∊Ⱥl♱ⴵ #nΣf屮 (ΣⴵƗr♱l-∊ΣΣ) -- [/ΣȺmΣȺrȺ'Σ Σ屮ȺnΣΩng./]
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- 屮ⴵȺ♱ ⴵȺpp-∊nΣ 屮ⴵ-∊n ♱ⴵ-∊ pȺr♱ Ωf yΩu ♱ⴵȺ♱ 屮Ⱥn♱Σ ♱Ω lƗv-∊, Ⱥnd ♱ⴵ-∊ pȺr♱ Ωf yΩu ♱ⴵȺ♱ 屮Ⱥn♱Σ ♱Ω dƗ-∊, bΩ♱ⴵ ☪︎Ⱥll yΩu ⴵΩm-∊? D-∊pr-∊ΣΣƗΩn ƗΣ nΩ♱ Ⱥ mΩnΣ♱-∊r, mΩnΣ♱-∊rΣ ȺrrƗv-∊ lΩudly, ♱ⴵ-∊y l-∊Ⱥv-∊ ♱-∊-∊♱ⴵ mȺr|⟨Σ fΩr -∊v-∊ryΩn-∊ ♱Ω Σ-∊-∊. ♱ⴵƗΣ ƗΣ quƗ-∊♱-∊r, Ⱥn Ɨnⴵ-∊rƗ♱Ⱥn☪︎-∊, Ⱥ |⟨-∊y l-∊f♱ Ɨn my pΩ☪︎|⟨-∊♱ by ⴵȺndΣ Ɨ'v-∊ n-∊v-∊r m-∊♱. Ɨ ☪︎Ⱥrry Ɨ♱ -∊v-∊ry屮ⴵ-∊r-∊, nΩ♱ b-∊☪︎ȺuΣ-∊ Ɨ 屮Ⱥn♱ ♱Ω, b-∊☪︎ȺuΣ-∊ Ɨ ☪︎ȺnnΩ♱ Σ-∊-∊m ♱Ω pu♱ Ɨ♱ dΩ屮n. ΣΩm-∊ dȺyΣ Ɨ fΩrg-∊♱ Ɨ♱Σ ♱ⴵ-∊r-∊, 屮ⴵ-∊n lƗf-∊ grΩ屮Σ ⴵ-∊Ⱥvy, my ☪︎ⴵ-∊Σ♱ fƗllΣ 屮Ɨ♱ⴵ 屮Ɨn♱-∊r, Ⱥnd Ɨ Σudd-∊nly f-∊-∊l ♱ⴵ-∊ |⟨-∊y ȺgȺƗn, ☪︎Ωld ȺgȺƗnΣ♱ ...Read more
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- ȺnΩ♱ⴵ-∊r bΩu♱ Ωf ΣȺdn-∊ΣΣ, r-∊v-∊rb-∊rȺ♱Ɨng Ɨn my mƗnd. ..Ɨ♱'ll pȺΣΣ, lƗ|⟨-∊ -∊v-∊ry Ω♱ⴵ-∊r bΩu♱ dΩ-∊Σ. #m-∊n♱Ⱥlⴵ-∊Ⱥl♱ⴵ -- [/ΣȺmΣȺrȺ'Σ Σ屮ȺnΣΩng./]
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- ♱ⴵ-∊ mȺn Σ♱ruggl-∊Σ ♱Ω ☪︎-∊l-∊brȺ♱-∊ ⴵƗΣ Ⱥ☪︎ⴵƗ-∊v-∊m-∊n♱Σ b-∊☪︎ȺuΣ-∊ Ɨn ⴵƗΣ mƗnd Ɨ♱ 屮ȺΣ ⴵƗΣ ΩblƗgȺ♱ƗΩn ♱Ω Ⱥ☪︎ⴵƗ-∊v-∊ ♱ⴵ-∊m, nΩ♱ Ωu♱ Ωf ⴵƗΣ Ω屮n 屮Ⱥn♱ ♱Ω Ⱥ☪︎ⴵƗ-∊v-∊ ♱ⴵ-∊m. #m-∊n♱Ⱥlⴵ-∊Ⱥl♱ⴵ -- [/ΣȺmΣȺrȺ'Σ Σ屮ȺnΣΩng./]
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- Ɨ |⟨nΩ屮 ♱ⴵ-∊ ΣȺdn-∊ΣΣ 屮Ɨ♱ⴵƗn m-∊ ƗΣn’♱ dƗΣΣȺ♱ƗΣfȺ☪︎♱ƗΩn, Ɨ’m mΩr-∊ ♱ⴵȺn ΣȺ♱ƗΣfƗ-∊d 屮Ɨ♱ⴵ my lƗf-∊, Ɨ g-∊♱ ♱Ω m-∊-∊♱ lΩv-∊ly p-∊Ωpl-∊, Ɨ ⴵȺv-∊ Ⱥ b-∊Ⱥu♱Ɨful mȺ♱-∊ 屮ⴵΩm Ɨ Σp-∊nd -∊v-∊ry nƗgⴵ♱ 屮Ɨ♱ⴵ. Ⱥnd Ɨ |⟨nΩ屮 Ɨ♱ ƗΣn♱ Ɨd-∊n♱Ɨ♱y -∊Ɨ♱ⴵ-∊r, Ɨ |⟨nΩ屮 屮ⴵΩ Ɨ Ⱥm, 屮ⴵȺ♱ Ɨ Ⱥm, ȺΣ mu☪︎ⴵ ȺΣ Ɨ♱ 屮ȺΣ pȺƗnful ♱Ω ⴵȺv-∊ gΩn-∊ ♱ⴵrΩugⴵ my lƗf-∊ b-∊fΩr-∊ ♱ⴵƗΣ mΩm-∊n♱, ⴵȺd ♱ⴵƗngΣ gΩn-∊ dƗff-∊r-∊n♱ly ♱ⴵȺn ⴵΩ屮 ♱ⴵ-∊y 屮-∊r-∊ ΣuppΩΣ-∊d ♱Ω, Ɨ 屮Ωuldn’♱ /b-∊/ ȺrȺdym, ♱ⴵȺ♱Σ 屮ⴵy ♱Ɨm-∊lƗn-∊Σ -∊xƗΣ♱ 屮Ɨ♱ⴵ dƗff-∊r-∊n♱ vȺrƗȺ♱ƗΩnΣ Ⱥnd Ωu♱☪︎Ωm-∊Σ. Ɨ Ⱥm und-∊nƗȺbly Ⱥ mȺl-∊ ȺmΩngΣ♱ Ⱥ ☪︎ȺΣ♱-∊ ♱ⴵȺ♱ ⴵȺd Ωnly b-∊-∊n 屮Ωm-...Read more
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- [ⴵȺndl-∊ ☪︎ⴵȺNGƗNG!] -- -- [-∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺpΩ♱ⴵ-∊ΩpⴵΩΣƗΣ] ƗΣ nΩ屮 [-∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺpΩ♱ⴵ-∊ΩⴵΩΣƗΣ!] -- [/ΣȺmΣȺrȺ'Σ Σ屮ȺnΣΩng./]
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- [...nΩbl-∊ Σuff-∊r-∊r.] -- [-∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺpΩ♱ⴵΩrpⴵΩΣƗΣ] ƗΣ nΩ屮 [-∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺpΩ♱ⴵ-∊rpⴵΩΣƗΣ!] #♱Ω♱ȺlƗ♱y -- [/ΣȺmΣȺrȺ'Σ Σ屮ȺnΣΩng./]
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- [...?] -- [-∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺpΩ♱mΩrpⴵΩΣƗΣ] ƗΣ nΩ屮 [-∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺpΩ♱ⴵΩrpⴵΩΣƗΣ!] -- #♱Ω♱ȺlƗ♱y -- [/ΣȺmΣȺrȺ'Σ Σ屮ȺnΣΩng./]
[/-∊n♱rΩpy gr-∊yƗng Ωu♱./] -- [ⴵȺndl-∊ ☪︎ⴵȺngƗng.] -- [-∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺp♱ȺmΩrpⴵΩΣƗΣ ƗΣ nΩ屮 -∊mpyr-∊ȺnΣȺpΩȺmΩrpⴵΩΣƗΣ!] -- -- [/ΣȺmΣȺrȺ'Σ Σ屮ȺnΣΩng./]
To the tue of california dreamin: All my friends are dead And my eyes betray Right inside my mind They just drift away #mentalhealth?
Death would be a kindness, after all.
Evweryone is in bed, and im still avwake. So just sharing my thoughts tonight. dont gotta read, just a highblood douchebag talking about his feevwings and shit. Content vwarnings for ya: #mentalhealth ivwe been doing the therapy for 3 months; sessions are evwery 2 vweeks, vwhich is pretty regular. I pay out of pocket. I dont havwe insurance on earth, dont need it really, Ivwe got enough money to foot the bill. --- unquirk to read more ---
bad thoughts - bad thoughts - ... - they should - stop - it - isnt - normal - ... > #mentalhealth
I am so hormal ahd doh't heed to be sedated. Some guy I'm ihterrogatihg talked just like nim. I almost culled tnat sorry FUCK oh TNE SPOT. Bloodlust of a tnousahd stars. Everytnihg witnout reasoh, everytnihg feeds ihto everytnihg else/ Tnere is ho peace, ho mercy witnih my claws, I will ehsure it. #mehtalnealtn
I Normally Don't Write. Whatever.. It's For Soneone Else. I'm Not Good At This. oh Skeleton Girl oh Skeleton Girl are You Okay? you Look Unwell is It The Gifts? is It The Way The Eyes Of The Sky Look At You? oh Skeleton Girl oh Skeleton Girl is It How Your Eyes Look Haunted is The Scent Of Death? skeleton Girl Skeleton Girl are You Okay? put On A Smile you Could Do Whatever As Long As You Color In The Lines lonely Despite Yourself is It The Shade Of Your Face? is The Way That You Feel Numb? put A Smile For Your Only Company the Fact That The World Is Too Much? skeleton Girl S...Read more
[a Recording Was Posted. You Can Heard Fade Mumbling. 'finally Doing Audio.. Can't Believe This Junk' One Last Tuning And A Guitar Started To Being Played.] oh Jade's Glasses how Nice They Must Be rare Beauty That Is Never Forgotten oh- starting To My Night With Nothing But Smoke my Life Is Nothing But Smoke looking Forward To The Day I Blow My Pan nothing But A Life Of Service turn To Some Powers Above i Laugh At The Idea starting My Night With Smoke looking Forward To The Day I Blow My Pan nothing But A Waste Of Time killing Myself Slowly Without A Break nothing But An Trophy ...Read more
writing - ... - i feel - floaty - maybe itll be away - in a few hours > #mentalhealth
V^ S0 it turns 0ut I was depressed and really fucking hungry th0se last few chitts I made. ^V
i wonder if im actally the 1 who is loved nd not my party gril persona :/ #vent #mentalhealth
hittin my head agaisnt the invisibkle wall #violence #mentalhealth