Firmum Itiner
@cherubicTension
Honestly, just don't refer to me. Just.. don't at all. I'm trying to make tabs on someone
You are Firmum Itiner. What is there to even say or do? You are a jadeblood with your own issues for damn sure. Somehow you know the Heiress of the Empire and he's always on the edge of collapsing from what you can tell... Enough about that. You are half going insane from everyone else in your damn life. Your interests are rather hidden from most people that you know if someone else already does the same thing. You are a guitarist and a singer in your free time. Your own desires are often held by what you believe others expect and society wants from you. Some people in your life may call you unsympathetic bastard of a Jadeblood who seems to get off by being mean to those close to her. You deny such claims. You aren't that mean. You frankly aren't that abnormal either. It puts you in a odd spot in most things. Perhaps we should jump back to your likes. You are a trackster in your free time with no claims to fame or anything of the sort. You like music, and you enjoy writing. Purrbeasts are one of the things that have learned your favour much like the ocean. You aren't particularly alone with how your life is set up. Unfortunately for you is that you can't handle bleeding or any type of gore. Some may say why does that matter? It matters when you are part of sending grubs to trials and how causal culling lowbloods is. You are not as normal as you ever claim to be as well and you know that. You have arsonist tendencies and often want to burn everything down to the ground. You don't tend to bring that up like most anything. You often want to crush others below your feet for reasons that aren't related to anything per say wrong with you. What would even be wrong with you to bring with? Sure, you may hypothetically want to kill a lot of people but you don't. There may be some hypotheticals where you would kill everyone and torture them for some people. Ironically you can't get over your ex who ran away a sweep ago. It wasn't fair. You really liked her and she fucking abandoned you! Not even letting you join her. You are SIGN OF THE REDEMPTIVE and a unaware Maid of Heart. You have no idea who your ancestor is and it is all the better for it. You rather not be one of those highbloods wanting to recreate their totally so cool ancestor's life that you need to do as frankly. That is so **pathetic.** You have seen the opposite effect where those aware of their ancestors feel crushed under the weight of their actions forever. You can't say you want that. As long as you breathe, you'll be fine.
Fuck It. Can I Get A Song To Cover As Someone Dozed Off And I Am Not Waking Him Up When He Doesn't Sleep
Bitie And I Are Together.. He Sounds Insane, But He Always Sounds Insane
I Normally Don't Write. Whatever.. It's For Soneone Else. I'm Not Good At This. oh Skeleton Girl oh Skeleton Girl are You Okay? you Look Unwell is It The Gifts? is It The Way The Eyes Of The Sky Look At You? oh Skeleton Girl oh Skeleton Girl is It How Your Eyes Look Haunted is The Scent Of Death? skeleton Girl Skeleton Girl are You Okay? put On A Smile you Could Do Whatever As Long As You Color In The Lines lonely Despite Yourself is It The Shade Of Your Face? is The Way That You Feel Numb? put A Smile For Your Only Company the Fact That The World Is Too Much? skeleton Girl Skeleton Girl if You Drowned no One Would Mourn skeleton Girl Skeleton Girl are You Okay? is It Your Bones Cold? is It The Way You Lose Control? is It The Way You Are Seen As A Monster? skeleton Girl Skeleton Girl are You Okay? numb To The Cold freezing Within Yourself skeleton Girl Skeleton Girl.. #writing #poetry #cw-death #mentalhealth
Fuck- I Need A Bell On Him. He Scared Me When I Was Trying To Tend To The Grubs. Get Your Friend Bells..
I'm Going To Just Hope He Doesn't Wake Up And If I Hear Something About How He Missed My Bloodpusher Beating Or Something Weird Like That Whenever He Wakes Up. It Will Be A Typical Day..
Debating If I Should Push Sharkie Off Of Me. I Have Things To Do But He Also Gets Vivid Night Terrors And Has Only Been Sleeping More Recently.. Decisions. Truly. This Is Cruel. #pondering
He Got Me New Outfits, How Thoughtful! Considering It Was Stained Beyond What Was Washable
[a Recording Was Posted. You Can Heard Fade Mumbling. 'finally Doing Audio.. Can't Believe This Junk' One Last Tuning And A Guitar Started To Being Played.] oh Jade's Glasses how Nice They Must Be rare Beauty That Is Never Forgotten oh- starting To My Night With Nothing But Smoke my Life Is Nothing But Smoke looking Forward To The Day I Blow My Pan nothing But A Life Of Service turn To Some Powers Above i Laugh At The Idea starting My Night With Smoke looking Forward To The Day I Blow My Pan nothing But A Waste Of Time killing Myself Slowly Without A Break nothing But An Trophy to Be Earned is Any Thought Behind Their Stupidity? oh- jade's Blood oh The Maidens In Green starting My Night With Nothing But Smoking Dreams won't Even Be A Footnote killing Myself Slowly Without A Break waiting For The Day That I Blow Out My Pan seek Powers To Beg For Some Kind Of Pity wouldn't You Like It If I Groveled? beg For Some Kind Of Mercy That It'll Never Be Given? what Type Of Life Do You Think This Is? my Life Is Nothing But Smoke waiting For The Night To Turn To Day if This Has To Be My Life i Might Just Rather Burn. [and An Sudden Audio Cut.] ##cw-self-harm #lyrics #song #mentalhealth
Of Course- Of Course. That Makes Too Much Sense #vagueposting
I Might Write Lyrics Again.. Can't Sleep
sick
Where Is Sharkie.. Is He Staying Somewhere Else Or Is He Home #vagueposting
Getting - Milkshakes.. - Hehe >
what flav/)r did u get im curi/)us
nice br/) i g/)t ube
I Also.. Need Someone To Stop Sleeping On My Chest So Much Lately. I Swear- I Had To Wake Up To Weird Shit Happening.. #vagueposting
i can pick /)ne /)f yall up if ya want. h/)ld/)n i need t/) g/) get an/)ther speeding ticket
idk i need an excuse t/) speed. duh
/)n my way. d/) u wanna get milkshakes btw? /)rlane w/)nt get any with me
/)n my way
Sigh.. People Are Weird
Of Course My Friend Would Get Clown Rabies. #directposting
this really isn’t my fault /)kay?
IM N(\T G(\ING T(\ BITE ANY(\NE!
i have GREAT IDEAS all /)f the time
N(\(\(\(\(\(\(\(\ WHYYY
How Is Everyone I Guess? No Deaths? No Culling?
♑︎t dead w♓︎ic♓︎ idk if t♓︎ats g♉︎♉︎d ♉︎r bad... its s♉︎♏︎et♓︎ing...
Profor Is Trying To Convince Me To Cone To A Event With Him. Should I? Not Sure. He Is Giving Me His Most Pitiful Gaze.
Please please please please