What a basket case Stuck in replaying scenes over and over The exact days you were abandoned The days that you saw a friend change When you couldn't stay your face The exact moment you forced tears Panic lacing the sacks in your chest If you hurt more Will it force tears to your eyes You wish you would cry The pain doesn't feel enough When did you grow numb You feel five steps behind Your words dont feel yours You're steps behind your actions You cry "mama Mama, don't leave me" "Mother mother, why can't you not hurt me" "Love me without conditions- Mama mama!" It is almost as you relive it You push it back and make yourself milder Downplay your own hurt Yet you scream without a mouth How do you scream and scream indirectly "As long as I am not direct" "I am okay. Broken as I am" You retrace your steps Reruns on a broken television You can't handle these facts And so, You write Your thoughts are not you Your desires aren't yours A doll is how you feel Everyone loves a doll Within the toyhive You wonder if you snap their joints Will you feel correct? You don't Be a pushover Mild as melting Your rot festers Basket Case Basket Case Sing us a Song Tell when you cried Basket Case Tell of the times Basket Case Basket Case! Remember the bloodshed Basket Case Basket Case Did you forget? Oh Basket Case! #poetry #writing #mentalhealth #horror ##cw-self-harm (?)
Only note; forgot poetry tag