.i .am having .awful, .awful thoughts. .i think, .i .am losing grip .on reality. sorry, but .i'm .out .of supplies .and .i'm bad .at this. .i still don't .understand .on how to make new .items, .at least basics. .i haven't slept that long .amount before, .i guess. but .i don't see .any places .other see. .uhhh... sorry to .everyone. .i'm .useless... seems .i met my .own .ending here. .i... .i don't .even know what to do now. .i had .at least my job .and some tries .in new hobbies. but now .i don't have .anything. shooting .is fun, but my .arm feel sore .on .every shot. people think shooting for prolong time .is .easy. .it's not. .it kicks .into your shoulder .and you have to keep your grip. .it's hard. sorry. .i have nothing to lose. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health