Fucking pissed, still. It seems that everyone back home knows what my destiny is. However, people keep telling me "Dali, you are not ready yet to know." I'm fucking 69! ...admittedly that's like 24 for a human, but like. I know. I already know I will die. I just want to know how. If nothing else, so I know how to spend my time with my girlfriend, that I know how much time I have left to cherish her. The fact that I've been blind to my destiny for 5 years now is driving me insane. If I am supposed to die at least give me a fucking counter to work with.
