>>| .i can't .attend the memorial. .i have bad situation .in my life .itself... .if there .is .an .option .or possibility. .i'd like to say sorry. sorry for .every word .i spilled, which made you hurt. words which .i cannot take back, .only to watch how they .are painful to you. words cannot describe .of how sorry .i .am. you were .actually funny .and good. .i was just. bad. .i'm sorry. .i'll