testimony: i think i might be the first nonbinary person to understand not being nonbinary. testimony: im sitting on a beach chair in a spottedmeowbeast print hawaiian shirt, margaritaville by jimmie bufett is playing, n there's an adorable flamingo on my chest
see nowvw this is advwice. strangely, i don't feel it wvwill help at all.
If it is upsetting to you, you need not dedicate time to it. It is an explloratory experience, not a triall to undergo. Perhaps simplly consider, occasionally, when doing things, or making choices, "am I doing this because it is a normall thing for a man to do, or am I doing this because I feell good about it?" If the answer is routinelly the llatter, perhaps you are perfectlly comfortablle as you are. If the former, perhaps there are new horizons to expllore.
wvwhat's so hard? wvwhat's so hard? maybe for you this isn't hard at all. maybe you hatched out of your little cocoon a perfectly self actualized person. this is hard. it can't be that easy. just think about it. just call yourself that. wvwhat's hard about it is the crushing wvweight of reconciling evwerything that came before wvwith the asininely simple solution presented to me of "just do wvwhat you are doing nowvw except you magically are this thing nowvw". wvwhat's hard is the feeling of wvwasted time and the shadowvws of relationships torn asunder because i wvwas dreaming in a language i nevwer understood only to be told it's this simple to speak it. not that anyone wvwould havwe listened back then. nevwermind. this anger is getting me nowvwhere. my temper is doing nothing but ruining this. i need to relax. i need to.... be more non binary. i think.
testimony: beer tastes better if you drink it while nonbinary. this post was fact checked by teal alternian patriots
hmmmmmm. i see. this makes more sense to me. i can certainly do that. i knowvw, for example, i like to wvwear fuzzy robes after i showvwer. mindfang once told me i looked like a pansy. sometimes i feel as if i must keep myself awvway from these wvwaters or i wvwill lose wvwho i am, and wvwithout that i wvwill havwe nothing. it's infuriating. it's a shell. i feel too old to molt but i feel choked. ugh.
hmm. he, obvwiously. good, classic, strong. she, second. a good she can send ripples through any convwersation. after that, i wvwould say wvwe. i havwe alwvways enjoyed the powvwer of a collectivwe.
I understand these feellings. Ulltimatelly, I bellieve it is best to think of it as... unearthing new depths of the sellf, rather than llosing what was once considered the sellf. The olld sellf becomes a tip of the iceberg, lleading to greater understanding when digging up what llies beneath. And hopefully, greater comfort.
that's.... beautiful. i wvwant to knowvw more. i knowvw i havwe a temper but this is, against all odds in my mind, fascinating. i guess in this newvw wvworld i havwe a chance to be a newvw person. to truly embrace the wvwinds of change.
re: all that: thats sick my 3 favorite pronouns are it/its, sev/sevens, n star/stars but those are all pretty good i FW those