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I Feel Selfish For Holding On As Long As I Had. In A Way It Felt Like I Had To, In Order To Justify The Way I Felt To Myself. I Think He Would Want Me To Let Go. It Is Hard Not To Think Of That As Something Selfish As Well.

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xx Grief is funny in this way. xx xx That he would have wanted you to let go is not at odds to you not being ready, it would have been born of want for you to be happy. xx xx It is not selfish to be unhappy in such circumstances. xx xx It is not selfish to hold on to what remains, it is simply part of grieving. xx xx Just as learning to let go is part of it. xx xx It takes time to be ready to accept such things. There is a reason grief comes in five stages. xx

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