#7earning makes me feel like there's a knot in the pit of m7 stoma(h. it makes me feel small and humiliated and fumbling at what ever7one else knows effortlessl7. i reall7 don't know how an7one romanti(izes it.
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it's dire(ted, is wh7 i'm (alling it 7earning. there are people i am 7earning for, and our relationship isn't where i want it to be. ma7be "good 7earning" and "bad 7earning" aren't the right terms, be(ause it does su(k, but. i dunno. two different t7pes of 7earning. loneliness in both of them, i think. kind of hard to untangle these feelings in general, i think
7eah. i know what i need to do, at least. i'm probabl7 just overthinking things again
7eah that's a separate thing entirel7, in m7 thoughts
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7eah, that's the solution. i just go and talk to them. stop overthinking things. it'll work out in m7 favor, i'm almost (ertain, too.
Th@t'$ The $pirit :-]