well. i feel like a fucking idiot. typing this out now. after blowing up his fucking hive. like a stupid. piece of shit. but whatever. i have. another epitaph for him too. i never understood what you saw in me. once, you told me, while we sat outside looking up at the stars, that you saw so much more beauty staring into my eyes. adn then we just held each other for what felt like forever. even now, when i close my eyes, i still ferl your arms wrapped around me. i still feel the warmth in your touvh. to you, i was the stars. to me - you were that, and so much more. i don’t even think I’m smart enough to put it into wordz, the magnitude of it. you were everything. every fucking thing to me. i'D do any fucking thing for yuo, just to see that wide, toothy smile again. i don’T think anyone has ever made a guy like me feel so fucking wanted. so needed. and when you went, i think a large part of me went too - if not all of it. thank you for everything, karmin. i love you. #phuntrsawesomequest #substance